http://gayspeak.com/forum GaySpeak is a friendly, fun + safe forums community for gay, bi, curious or gay friendly men, women + teens. Welcomes discussions on gay life + other topics. en Fri, 19 Mar 2010 22:25:48 GMT vBulletin 60 http://gayspeak.com/forum/images/styles/bluestar/misc/rss.jpg http://gayspeak.com/forum http://gayspeak.com/forum/culture/4811-more-native-american-time-my-people-navajo.html Fri, 19 Mar 2010 14:06:41 GMT gWoMDVYvWwA To the Navajo alot of our beliefs our kept secret...this preview to a documentary is only a little glimpse into our belief....

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To the Navajo alot of our beliefs our kept secret...this preview to a documentary is only a little glimpse into our belief.... ]]> Culture jade_ari http://gayspeak.com/forum/culture/4811-more-native-american-time-my-people-navajo.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/culture/4810-more-native-american-expierence-you.html Fri, 19 Mar 2010 14:02:13 GMT 1mtKnaK9PA8 it wont embed...but click the link...it is AMAZING!!! This is from the Western Apache...

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it wont embed...but click the link...it is AMAZING!!! This is from the Western Apache... ]]> Culture jade_ari http://gayspeak.com/forum/culture/4810-more-native-american-expierence-you.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/culture/4809-dont-have-comment-old-pow-wow-love-song.html Fri, 19 Mar 2010 13:35:02 GMT rs8NJI9cVd4

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]]> Culture jade_ari http://gayspeak.com/forum/culture/4809-dont-have-comment-old-pow-wow-love-song.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/gay-dating/4808-lady-gaga-totally-speaks-us-monster-lady-gaga.html Fri, 19 Mar 2010 12:32:56 GMT Don’t call me GaGa
I’ve never seen one like that before
Don’t look at me like that
You amaze me

He ate my heart
He a-a-ate my heart
(You little monster)

He ate my heart
He a-a-ate my heart out
(You amaze me)

Look at him
Look at me
That boy is bad
And honestly
He’s a wolf in disguise
But I can’t stop staring in those evil eyes

I asked my girlfriend if she’d seen you round before
She mumbled something while we got down on the floor baby
We might’ve fucked not really sure, don’t quite recall
But something tells me that I’ve seen him, yeah

That boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
That boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
That boy is a monster
Er-er-er-er

He ate my heart
(I love that girl)
He ate my heart
(Wanna talk to her, she’s hot as hell)

He licked his lips
Said to me
Girl you look good enough to eat
Put his arms around me
Said “Boy now get your paws right off me”

I asked my girlfriend if she’d seen you round before
She mumbled something while we got down on the floor baby
We might’ve fucked not really sure, don’t quite recall
But something tells me that I’ve seen him, yeah

That boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
That boy is a monster
M-M-M-Monster
That boy is a monster
Er-er-er-er

He ate my heart
(I love that girl)
He ate my heart
(Wanna talk to her, she’s hot as hell)

He ate my heart
He ate my heart
Instead he’s a monster in my bed

I wanna Just Dance
But he took me home instead
Uh oh! There was a monster in my bed
We french kissed on a subway train
He tore my clothes right off

He ate my heart the he ate my brain
Uh oh uh oh
(I love that girl)
(Wanna talk to her, she’s hot as hell)

That boy is a monster
M-m-m-monster
(Could I love him?)

That boy is a monster
M-m-m-monster
(Could I love him?)

That boy is a monster
M-m-m-monster
(Could I love him?)

That boy is a monster
Er-er-er-er


<object width="480" height="385"><param name="movie" value=" ]]> Gay Dating jade_ari http://gayspeak.com/forum/gay-dating/4808-lady-gaga-totally-speaks-us-monster-lady-gaga.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/confession-room/4807-i-have-confession.html Fri, 19 Mar 2010 12:15:33 GMT warning wall o text I have a confession. I’m not gay. To many this would come as no surprise or no intrigue but to me it is a scary realization. I... warning wall o text



I have a confession. I’m not gay. To many this would come as no surprise or no intrigue but to me it is a scary realization. I have lived my life since I was 11 believing I was bisexual. This is not me saying how I've found the light of god or how I was turned straight or any of that bullshit. This is me telling you of a confused little child trapped in an abusive relationship at a very young age. That child is most obviously me. I knew him as my sister’s friend at first, two years my senior, and every now and then when I wasn’t being an annoying little pest to them they would let me play on the Sega with them and we had lots of fun. I was probably around 8 at the time. After awhile we even began to play during recess at school. One day we were walking around the field and we noticed a single tree against a fence that if under would completely hide you from view even if someone was right in front of it, which nobody ever was. This tall broad pine tree was way out in the field that nobody ever came that way; it was even hard to hear the school bell when it rang. We decided in our childish way to go and hide under it in the way that children find so enjoyable. This spot became “our spot” nobody could touch us here, nothing could hurt us here; except each other. By this time I think I had reached my ninth birthday, everyone had come to recognize that this person and I now held the status of friends. One time when we went under the tree maybe sometime in late may, there was no snow and it was quite warm, he decided, as most children do at his age, to experiment with these amazing little appendages we have called penises. This experimenting carried on for the better part of a year. At first it started with things as small as he would touch mine he’d get me to touch his and “sword fights”. It kept escalating from there until he had the bright idea that when we got an erection it would fit most conveniently into the other persons anus. I didn’t really like the idea but as he was older I respected him and did what he told me to do. At first he tried to be “top” but I told him it hurt so that he would stop because I still wasn’t comfortable with the idea. This of course meant we had to try with me on top. And well all I can say is it felt good. Yes. I had my first sexual experience resulting in penetration at maybe about 10 years of age. From this point on I always jumped at the chance to go behind the tree. All I could think of at that age was how good it felt. I didn’t know anything about liking boys or girls I just wanted my fix. It’s funny in a dry sort of way. I was a sex addict at age 10. After awhile of this he was able to convince me to be bottom on punishment of me not getting top for awhile if I didn’t. It hurt for the first few times but I got used to it and even began to like it. It was at about age 11 that I learned about homosexuals and heterosexuals and what they mean. At the age I was I automatically placed myself in the homosexual category as the basic idea I got behind it was that homosexuals are men who have sex with other men. It was at this point that that the other boy and I were fast deteriorating as friends. He was hanging out with my sister more and what’s more he was very abusive. He continually hit me and he at various points choke-slammed me. But I still kept going back to him. Not for him but for the sex. I deluded myself into thinking I liked him because that’s what I had been told was what gay men did and that it was not only about the sex. I was a fool, an idiot, a child. By this time I was obviously very fearful of him and even if I tried to break my addiction to sex the addiction was both ways and we were each other’s only way to get a fix. If I tried to stop he hit me. Even after my parents banned him from the house after seeing the marks from his abuse on my body we both snuck out to see each other just so we could have sex. And he still hit me. And of course because the marks still kept showing up my parents thought that maybe someone else was doing the abuse and that I had lied so they let him back to our house. And so the system of abuse continued. When I was about 14 I was finally liberated. The boy I once called a friend was killed in a car accident. I refused to go to his funeral. And though the abuser was gone the delusion was still there. I thought that because I like having sex with guys that made me gay. And I knew by this time that I had an interest in girls, so a new word was added to my vocabulary, bisexual. I later on started going out with people girls and guys, guys discreetly. I kept deluding myself in thinking that I liked guys. I learned how to appreciate the male body, and even as I now realize I am a straight male I can still appreciate the male figure. I learned many of the mannerisms and characteristics of homosexual males. I have been told I'm a very empathetic person though I’m not to sure whether or not that is a result of who I am naturally or who I deluded myself into thinking I was. And I am easily capable of sex with a male. I’ve had a fair few same-sex partners and I’ve always felt lust though it was never lust for them, it was simply lust for an orgasm. I can honestly say that because of my delusion that I was bisexual I have gone through many of the difficulties that plague our homosexual youth. I have been beaten, I have been threatened, and I have been otherwise persecuted all because I believed I was bisexual. I even went through a phase of coming to terms with myself being bi. I have stood up and fought for gay right in my community I have done public speeches on how to help homosexual youths and I have helped many homosexual people come to terms with themselves and if they told their parents and got kicked out or disowned I gave them my bed to sleep in and I helped them find jobs so they could get back on their feet. And yet even after all that I found no inkling of satisfaction of being with a man other than sexual. I then met the person I’ve been with for 5 years now, a girl. I feel satisfaction, sexually, mentally, and spiritually. I’m not stating that I’m not gay simply because I’m in love with a girl but because even before I fell in love with her, even before I met her, I felt something with girls I never felt with guys. Now that I’ve been with the love of my life for some time now I decided to look into my past and I’ve realized I never liked the guys I was with. I was there for the body not the mind, and not even the whole body I was there for the parts between the thighs and the waist. And yet I was deluding myself into thinking that I did feel something. I was for the better part of my life an imposter, so skilled I fooled myself. Now I ask you of the LGBT community, can you forgive me?

If you have any replies or hate mail, send it to crushedmug@hotmail.com I will read everything though I might not reply to it ]]> Confession Room crushedmug http://gayspeak.com/forum/confession-room/4807-i-have-confession.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/gay-dating/4806-why-do-they-think-they-can-even-go-there.html Fri, 19 Mar 2010 11:23:37 GMT so I just thought I would drop a line or a few...so tonight I went to Dos Gringos and totally got screwed...this guy and I went as FRIENDS but then... so I just thought I would drop a line or a few...so tonight I went to Dos Gringos and totally got screwed...this guy and I went as FRIENDS but then he started getting all wierd like awhile ago. I was like dude, why are you tripping....he was like, I thought you were here with me....I was like, Yea, as a friend. Then he's like thats fucked up...I'm like how?...he said you invite me out and just diss me cuz your tired?...I'm like dude you are tripping, I thought you wanted hang out...so then he says there is a party and if I wanna go...I was like, man I am tired I just wana go home...so he says, no, you are going with me...so Im like, hey, I just wana go back home and sleep...but alas, here I am at some dudes house using this compu and wishing I could go home...this sucks...you try to be friends with a person and they think that you want to go home with them??? How dare they...I said I just wanted to meet new people and here I have to be like, whatever, you need to put yourself in check...whatever right? Anyway, this is what happened tonight...I hate being single...everyone than thinks you are available...I HATE IT!!! NEWay, any insight you have, just let me know what you think. ]]> Gay Dating jade_ari http://gayspeak.com/forum/gay-dating/4806-why-do-they-think-they-can-even-go-there.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/general-advice/4805-what-would-you-do.html Thu, 18 Mar 2010 13:46:30 GMT Hey, Please may you tell me what YOU would do in my situation. In the past my boyfriend has stealed from my house, and I told him that if he stole... Hey,

Please may you tell me what YOU would do in my situation.

In the past my boyfriend has stealed from my house, and I told him that if he stole from me again we were over. (were talking £5, £10 etc)

However now I've found out he's stolen £50 of one of his mates via using his card in a machine and used the pin

I think this is MUCH serious compared to just taking from my house. I know he's not stolen from me but he's committed a crime.

Should I act (ie get rid of him), tell him I know? What do I do, I'm really unsure. ]]> General Advice Anonymous http://gayspeak.com/forum/general-advice/4805-what-would-you-do.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/coming-out/4804-coming-out.html Thu, 18 Mar 2010 01:02:42 GMT I came out to my parents the other day and im so happy! They are completely understanding about it and were not dissapointed in me at all. The only... I came out to my parents the other day and im so happy! They are completely understanding about it and were not dissapointed in me at all. The only thing they where concerned about was that i'd end up on my own for the rest of my life!

Im so glad that my parents are laid back and respecting people. I just feel sorry for those people that struggle having a hard time with it and there parents not dealing with it. Anyways, just thought i'd share my happiness and confirm im officially out of the broom cupboard :D ]]> Coming Out scotyboy http://gayspeak.com/forum/coming-out/4804-coming-out.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/chit-chat/4803-dancingshow.html Tue, 16 Mar 2010 23:00:36 GMT hello . i am going to be in a show. dancing. becase iit was at dancing lesson the teacher said it is a show. eveyone can watchs me in a... hello . i am going to be in a show. dancing. becase iit was at dancing lesson the teacher said it is a show. eveyone can watchs me in a show!:coffee: :coffee: :bouncer: :remybussi: :xyxwave: :wink: ]]> Chit Chat joseph http://gayspeak.com/forum/chit-chat/4803-dancingshow.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/introduce-yourself/4802-gay-literature-review.html Tue, 16 Mar 2010 14:44:41 GMT Hi,

I’m a male who is neither gay nor anti-gay. Quite simply, what legal activities people partake in are none of my business and affects me not in the slightest. That’s my only position on the subject: live and let live. A person’s sexual orientation would not influence my opinion of the person in the slightest regarding any irrelevant matter such as employment or residency opportunities.

I am appreciative to the moderators for the opportunity to post here. My purpose of doing so is that some people enjoy literature, and that is quite irrespective of such matters as sexual orientation. I’m a businessman who writes fiction and nonfiction as a hobby. I wrote a short story entitled “Pride’s Prison” which is a thinly-veiled personal memoir of my days in Catholic parochial school when I endured horrendous bullying due to a then undiagnosed mild case of Tourette’s Syndrome (“TS”) and ADHD. I have established an anti-school bullying website centered on the story, which I had hopes might one day become the Uncle Tom’s Cabin of the anti-school bullying cause.

Since the focus of my website is school bullying and not TS, perhaps some here might appreciate reading it as the specific reason why a child is being bullied in school is irrelevant to my story’s message. In short, if a kid is being tormented in school then I don’t give a damn whether it is because of some emotional problem such as TS, a physical or intellectual abnormality, or sexual orientation (actual or perceived). I simply want it to stop.

Additionally, the beginning of my story is framed as it is—a child abduction in broad daylight—as social commentary. For you younger folks here, it might come as a shock to read how radically societal matters have changed; roughly beginning in 1968, a truly watershed year.

However, the reason I am posting today is that at my website I also write literary reviews, mostly of short internet literature. I usually review an internet publication (a “zine”) as well as a featured story from each. I have written thirty-eight thus far. These reviews are totally unrelated to the special interest topics of my personal website. (I guess I should actually have two separate websites, separating the two. However, at this point that would be a lot of work to effect.)

My latest review is of a short story entitled “Stay,” by Angela Kroeger, a librarian from Nebraska who has written novels regarding lesbianism. This particular story, however, involves gay men. Ms. Kroeger also writes fantasy stories and ”Stay” is a hybrid piece incorporating fantasy with gay themes.

The free access zine it appeared in is called Crossed Genres. It’s a paying market that offers fantasy and science fiction pieces. It is published monthly and each issue has a theme which must be incorporated into all stories and articles within that particular issue. One of the monthly themes was: Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender and Queer, in which this short story appeared.

If any would be interested in reading my review of the piece and Crossed Genres, the link to my website can be found in my profile; or you can insert--"Donald Schneider" Tourette's--into a search engine and my website should be the first hit. Once at the Welcome Page, look on the left (above the hit counter) for the button link entitled "New Lit Review" and click. It has a red star next to it. Unfortunately, I'm too new here to post URLs.

At the end of the review, I link to the story at the zine. Some might be interested in reading other stories from the zine, particularly the issue in which this story was published. Despite my perception that the editorship of the publication is liberally inclined politically, the publication is reasonably tasteful. Profanity is relatively sparse compared to many other publications I have reviewed, and I encountered no sexually explicit material; though, as noted within my review, “Stay” has aspects that will upset certain types of readers.

My story and website are entirely free access with no ads or solicitations for donations.

Thanks to all.

Cordially,

Don Schneider ]]> Introduce Yourself Donald Schneider http://gayspeak.com/forum/introduce-yourself/4802-gay-literature-review.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/gay-community-events/4801-glp-circa-april-drinks-party.html Tue, 16 Mar 2010 12:51:49 GMT The APRIL CIRCA DRINKS PARTY has the exclusive use of the St Stephens Club on Friday 9th April (7-12) and, by special arrangement, guests can collect... The APRIL CIRCA DRINKS PARTY has the exclusive use of the St Stephens Club on Friday 9th April (7-12) and, by special arrangement, guests can collect passes to Shadow Lounge, Europe’s No 1 gay members club.

So come and join us and enjoy a complimentary glass of wine (7-8pm). Drinks will be available in the Bar and the Queenborough Room and Supper will be available in The Garden Room. Enjoy the spirit of the original Victorian townhouse and its lush views over the garden and St James Park.

Club drinks are: Wine: £4.50 per glass, £15.50 per bottle, Beer: £3.50, Spirits: single £3.50 (inclusive of mixer), Soft drinks: £2.25, Bottled Water: £1.00 glass.

Renowned for the quality of its food, Head Chef Alex Wood has created a 2/3 course menu (£20/£25 inc vat + service charge) with delicious choices.

Our members and guests are all ages and professions, a great night to network, flirt and make new friends. There is NO admission charge.

RSVP: Send an email to spencer@circa-club.com including your full name and those of up to 3 guests. ]]> Gay Community Events richardhenley778 http://gayspeak.com/forum/gay-community-events/4801-glp-circa-april-drinks-party.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/debates/4800-how-much-your-days.html Mon, 15 Mar 2010 03:49:35 GMT How much of your days do you spend being GAY, doing gay things, thinking in gay terms, researching gay stuff? How much of your days do you spend just... How much of your days do you spend being GAY, doing gay things, thinking in gay terms, researching gay stuff?
How much of your days do you spend just being a regular being? ]]> Debates princealbertofb http://gayspeak.com/forum/debates/4800-how-much-your-days.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/debates/4799-annie-lennox-h-i-v-positive.html Mon, 15 Mar 2010 03:44:32 GMT 0K2Q59eT2Us Annie Lennox is at it again - shocking people with a message! She is sporting a tee and in huge letters: H.I.V. POSITIVE

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Annie Lennox is at it again - shocking people with a message!

She is sporting a tee and in huge letters:

H.I.V.
POSITIVE

Sooooo, would you wear such a tee to get the message that HIV is still very much an issue? Do you have the balls to compete with Annie Lennox :remybussi:

Lennox said she has been very focused on this issue since she heard former South African President Nelson Mandela describe HIV/AIDS as "genocide" in 2003.


"To hear Mandela describe the HIV pandemic as a genocide really almost knocked me off my chair," she said.


"You know in South Africa, post-apartheid, one in every three pregnant women is carrying HIV. That is hugely significant. If they don't have intervention, the baby will be born with the virus. That baby will probably last, maybe a year."


Lennox added that a woman is raped every minute in South Africa, a country that is believed to have more people infected with HIV/AIDS than any other nation.


"You're seeing women especially, and young girls and young children, right at the front of the devastation. And it breaks my heart."

]]> Debates fjp999 http://gayspeak.com/forum/debates/4799-annie-lennox-h-i-v-positive.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/introduce-yourself/4798-newbie-alert.html Sun, 14 Mar 2010 16:55:55 GMT hey im new here! i found this site through some other gay chat site called GayCork and thought id join :) well umm im from ireland, im a... hey im new here! i found this site through some other gay chat site called GayCork and thought id join :)

well umm im from ireland, im a student.

would love to make some new friends if thats possible

so thats it for now i guess.. ]]> Introduce Yourself lind http://gayspeak.com/forum/introduce-yourself/4798-newbie-alert.html http://gayspeak.com/forum/chit-chat/4797-john.html Sat, 13 Mar 2010 12:58:27 GMT John!! Where have you gone? :confused: I miss you! :cry: Get in contact!!! :cry: Btw anyone else heard from him? :confused: John!! Where have you gone? :confused:

I miss you! :cry:

Get in contact!!! :cry:

Btw anyone else heard from him? :confused: ]]> Chit Chat rsconceptions http://gayspeak.com/forum/chit-chat/4797-john.html