|29th February 2012||#1|
Join Date: Nov 2011Single Gay Man
in Davie (USA)
I often ask myself this question. Why bother, dating? they are just going to break my heart after two months. So far it's been true. Past two guys I dated, ended after two months. They didn't tell me why bc they just ran off with out a word. I haven't card about boys in a while, like not caring about boyfriends and etc but lately I just been feeling utterly alone, it makes me cry. I don't know if I'll ever be happy. All I want is someone to care for me and always be there when I need them. Lately I've been crying, I tried talking to guys but I'm just not into them. Maybe I still want to be with the last guy who left me back in January. I just...Idk anymore. I hate everything going on around me. My job, my 2nd job, my internship, my lack of love and friends. I wish I was back in college where I had ppl who cared about me. Now I find myself sitting alone. I would go out to places but I hate going to bars and clubs all by myself. I miss having ppl I can go with that aren't gonna ditch me. Sorry guys I'm just venting right now. I feel like crap but I sure as hell don't look like it! I'm cute! Not blowing my horn, just saying lol I just need a friend I can hangout w/every now again, but what I really want is a BF...But that will never happen.