02-07-2011, 11:18 PM
Iâm really hoping there is someone out there who can honestly and respectfully give me their feedback on the relationship situation I find myself in. I'm a straight woman and for nearly the past year, I have been in a great relationship with a man I thought would end up being my husband. I would certainly consider this man to be one of my best friends and our communication is excellent. It has been refreshing to have a relationship with someone who seems very self-reflective, gracious, patient, doting and highly intelligent. He is a former chef, so he enjoys cooking for me, which has been wonderful, and we laugh regularly and have a lot of fun with each other. To top everything off, our sex life is great. He makes me feel attractive and weâre extremely compatible physically. Both of us have expressed how much we enjoy sex with the other person. Recently, weâve seriously made plans to take our relationship to the next level and move in together, get married and have a family. If youâre wondering what the problem isâ¦well, this is it. Recently, we were sharing deep and serious aspects about ourselves in a recent conversation. My boyfriend told me that there was something important about himself that he had never shared with anyone, but wanted me to know. He said that he looked at me as his future wife and did not want to have any secrets and wants me to know everything about him. He proceeded to tell me that he had once had sex with a Transvestite, where he was on the âgivingâ end. However, he also shared that he provided oral sex to this person as well. I asked him why he did this and he let me know that in College he began experimenting with anal stimulation on himself, while masturbating. He said that he always felt that it was wrong, but he couldnât help himself because it felt good. Apparently, this led to him making a decision 3 years ago to hook up with a transvestite. This was prior to our relationship and he assures me that he is not gay. I also asked if he would do something like that again and he convincingly told me that he wouldnât. All things considered, I feel like I took the news wellâ¦we held hands the entire time and looked into each otherâs eyes. He let me know that he shared this with me because he trusted that I would still love him and not judge him. While I respect and appreciate the sheer guts and courage it definitely took for a man to tell his woman ânewsâ of this nature, I canât help but wonder if my boyfriend is bisexual or gay (possibly not aware of it completely or in denial). I have to admit that I donât know how to deal with this knowledge and always thought a matter like this would be a Deal Breaker for me. Is my man on the DL or in the Closet or Bisexual or what? Prior to our first sexual encounter, both of us were tested for STDs and shared our results with one another, so I always felt we were open in that regard. Additionally, we both believe in monogamy and commitment, and as far as I know, my man has never cheated on me, (with a man or woman). So, I would say that the trust in the relationship is good on both ends. So, why do I feel suspicious of this person now? I donât think my man is lying to me, but I do wonder if he is denying a part of himself that is lingering in the background. My boyfriend is not effeminate, but does consider himself a metrosexual (heâs extremely well groomed, has great decorating taste, loves the arts and is the neatest boyfriend Iâve ever had). Common sense tells me that none of that stuff makes my man gay, but I have tons of questions. I know I have to tread carefully and be sensitive to his feelings and I know that every relationship comes with issues, but I just didnât see this one comingâ¦thoughts, anyone??? :confused:
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