SOS!!Abstance from Sex!!

[estoyaqui]

Hello guys. I need some advice. I haven't had sex for 2 years. The first year i was working 12 hours perday so i didnt have much time to meet someone. The second year i joined the army. I had an affair in the military camp with a man, but it was platonic. Only kisses and hugging. I m 25 years old, graduated from college, unemployed, i live with my parents and i cant find someone to fuck. I had beautiful partners in the past when i was fatter but now that i have a great body, greater manners,nice speaking and intriguing ways of approach my sex life doesnt exist. My self esteem has fallen extremely low because some guys in the past dumped me during 4play so i hesitate to make a move. I watch some porn but instead of feeling better i feel worse. I watch old men fuck hot men and i get jealous. Im a young handsome man and for a reason i cant find someone for sex. All the guys i like dont like me. I dont get it. They like my hotter and my ugliest friends but not me. Hot men dont approach me because they're looking for some hotter guys and normal guys hesitate because they feel inferior to me. Eventhough i m a professor the only jobs i found and went into interview are in a cafe and in supermarket part-time for 250 euro. I havent been called from the cafe and now im waiting for position in the supermarket. Im trapped in a damn city with no job, no boyfriend and every 15 days i check in hospital for some health issues. I dont know how to get out of this psychic limbo. Im thinking about seeing a therapist.