What am i??

[geauy]

First of all hi everyone! (since i'm new in here)

So, i'm sure you've all heard the usual "am i gay?" question, which leads me to think that you might be able to help me!

I consider myself to be straight. I've already been involved in straight relationships. The thing is... i love(and i do mean LOVE) to watch gay porn! I thrive on it, i masturbate to it, plus, i even have a secret skype account where i cam with other guys while masturbating... Sometimes i'm alone, i start fantasizing, and there i go, i instantly go watch gay porn!

Now, what confuses me is that in the regular day to day basis, when i'm walking down the street, when i'm with friends, when i'm in class, etc etc, never have i found myself checking out other guys, nor do i find that...stimulating... I'm constantly looking at other girls, i also watch straight and lesbian porn, but with gay porn it's different, i love it... Several times i've been on the verge of setting up something with another guy online, so i could try something, namely a bj, but i always chicken out at the last time...

So, what exactly am i?

[Counselor]

That sounds like a fetish. And a tricky one if you intend to pursue straight relationships in the future.

[Kat]

I don't think they sort of porn you like means anything. I like lesbian and gay porn better than straight porn if I watch it at all and I'm straight or celibate more than not.

[megumidesu]

the type of porn you watch doesn't mean anything much about your sexuality ~

i know lesbians who like straight porn , gay men who like lesbian porn , straight women who watch lesbian and gay male porn . it doesn't mean that they're in denial or anything . their relationships and who they're attracted to in the real world is what really defines their sexuality , not what porn they watch .

[geauy]

first of all thank you for answers!
but still, isn't it weird that i have some sort of fantasies or fetishes? but it's always/only something sexual, because as i said i don't feel atracted to other men on a regular day to day basis... when i was really young (between 7 and 10) i did have a meke-out session with another boy my age, could it be that that experience left something stirring in me?

[ThatRobGuy]

I think most people have some kind of fetish. Some people have rape fantasy fetishes, does that mean they truly want to be raped? Unlikely. Same thing for you with gay porn. Just because you are turned on by it doesn't necessarily mean you're looking to have sex yourself with a man.

[zeon]

What your experiencing is something known as exploration. You state that your still in education so i would imagen your going through the stage of homornes going all over the place.. I wouldnt want to 100% say your this or that but everyone understands sexuality different... When it boils down to factors of blue movies well thats just admiring something.. Does it mean when footballers share the showers naked and im sure some do have a little touchy joke that doesnt make them gay.. What can often happen is people view things like this because they are admiring the beauty of a person as a person..
When it comes to actual sex lets face it... Sex is sex the whole point of it is to get rid of an itch and its something thats installed in us that is done nowadays whether your in a relationship between two people or not.. Yeah in a relationship its what a lot of people like to understand it as love... As the one goes above and beyond to cause maximum pleasure for their partner but i would say the fact that your not admiring other guys your more than likely hetrosexual i would say judging by your post however looking at porn doesnt mean nor make you gay.. I could google big raving lesbians doing it doggy style and watch the whole episode (minus the popcorn) if i had to but inside i would know im gay and why would I know im gay.... because my heart lies with the same sex... That in my view is what determines our sexuality and before anyone comments on my opinon can i point out the thousands of gay people alive today who are dads and had sexual intercourse with a woman and created a baby... I would also suggest when you do go to get into a serious relationship if it is deemed your hetrosexual ensure your honest about the porn if it is still a issue as what can seem harmless bit of fun can turn into an addiction..

Kindest regards

Aunty zeon
Gayspeak agony aunt

[Pix]

first of all thank you for answers!
but still, isn't it weird that i have some sort of fantasies or fetishes? but it's always/only something sexual, because as i said i don't feel atracted to other men on a regular day to day basis... when i was really young (between 7 and 10) i did have a meke-out session with another boy my age, could it be that that experience left something stirring in me?

You might be surprised how many straight people who, when with people they trust or anonymously, report having at least one homosexual encounter, and likewise how many gay people can report having at least one heterosexual encounter. It doesn't change their sexuality, these things just happen, often with more curiosity than lust. And when such an encounter happens before age 13 then that's doubly true (that is, I won't count it).

[Pix]

You might find this useful reading, too:

http://www.utne.com/Mind-Body/21st-Centu...addam.aspx

Especially:

Men’s interest in women’s bodies is well known, but the next visual cue may come as a surprise. Men are more interested in penises than women are. An eye-tracking study found that, when viewing nonerotic images, men consistently direct their gaze to the male crotch, through women rarely do. In porn, the penis is always under the spotlight. On the adult website Fantasti.cc, the predominantly male users rate more than
1 million images and videos. Out of the 100 top-rated images, 21 feature close-up shots of a penis. And on all of the major adult video sites, “Big Dick” is a popular porn category.

What drives straight men’s interest in T-girls? The T-girl is an erotical illusion that juxtaposes two kinds of male visual cues. First is a set of cues for femininity: breasts, butts, curvy figures, and feminine facial features and mannerisms. But there is another vivid cue: the penis. As we’ve learned, the penis has a special power to activate the male sexual brain. When you superimpose these two cues, the result is powerful.

[Danno90]

What are you? You are a person. Yeah we all (myself included) find comfort in labels, I suppose we find things easier to deal with if we know roughly what we're dealing with.

Some might say you were to some degree bisexual... predominately straight, being sexually, physically and emotionally attracted to women but only sexually attracted (and even then, by the sounds of things only slightly) to men. But I guess quantifying exactly what it is about gay porn that you like (is it the masculinity of the guys, the physical act of anal sex, or just getting aroused by the fact that they're aroused?) might help you work things out.