no joy no fun

[strangerrr]

a few weeks ago, i wrote a thread about how i love america, despite everything i am facing. yes, this places is awesome; it offered me opportunities that i would never find anywhere else.
but, i really miss having fun. the other day i went to a bar, and chatted with some cute guys. but that was all. while the guys who really wanted to be with me were not my type at all (very overweight old guys who are desperate for sex). i am not ageist at all, and i do find older guys with a few extra pounds (if covered with hair) hot. one of them even offered me money. the reason why i went there because i really missed making love, the touches and the kisses, and i am not ashamed of saying that.
i felt really sad, and i just left.
i used to get off at least 4 times everyday, but it has been over a week since i got off. i used to enjoy watching gay porn, but now every time i watch something i start comparing guys in these clips to me, or get on these websites to see if there are any other hairy bottoms (like me), but again they are all actors.
i miss the days where i used to get hit on by hot Turkish men

[zeon]

Hello,
I would recommend maybe finding individuality because without that in life anyone is infact nothing... I would say the novelty of porn is wearing off and comparing itself to you is showing your lacking self esteem. Dont ever compare beauty mags and pretty bois to yourself because they got one thing you havent and that is endless amounts of make up.. If you go out in the evening for a drink and say right imn going out for a drink and if i get anything i get it if i dont i dont end of u wont be feeling bad inside.. Dont look for love let love find you because eventually it will matey and there might be times when u think i wanna scream at u because ur being a twat and getting right under my skin... Just be yourself and show the world just how colourful one is as personality goes and im sure ur get there eventually... I know when im single i dont go looking for sex yes like everyone we do miss what we havent got but nothing a quick wank cant sort out so hey dont fret as ya not the only one in this situation and remember.... It could be worse u could go out dressed as a bad drag act with a wonkey eye and try to pull....

rocky horror picture show spring to mind?

kindest regards

aunty zeon xx

[MisterTinkles]

You might think about finding you a sex buddy. Someone who can be "a friend with benefits".

I had a sex buddy a few years ago. It was nice. We rarely had sex, but when we did, it was just because we had the "urge". Other than that, we just hung out with each other and had fun going out doing things.

Just a thought....

[strangerrr]

Hello,
I would recommend maybe finding individuality because without that in life anyone is infact nothing... I would say the novelty of porn is wearing off and comparing itself to you is showing your lacking self esteem. Dont ever compare beauty mags and pretty bois to yourself because they got one thing you havent and that is endless amounts of make up.. If you go out in the evening for a drink and say right imn going out for a drink and if i get anything i get it if i dont i dont end of u wont be feeling bad inside.. Dont look for love let love find you because eventually it will matey and there might be times when u think i wanna scream at u because ur being a twat and getting right under my skin... Just be yourself and show the world just how colourful one is as personality goes and im sure ur get there eventually... I know when im single i dont go looking for sex yes like everyone we do miss what we havent got but nothing a quick wank cant sort out so hey dont fret as ya not the only one in this situation and remember.... It could be worse u could go out dressed as a bad drag act with a wonkey eye and try to pull....

rocky horror picture show spring to mind?

kindest regards

aunty zeon xx

it is just a different place for me, and i am still adapting. though i miss being attractive by others. i never think i am ugly, but guys around me mostly not into me. i am not going to change anything cuz i accepted myself and my body years ago. i am an individual.

[strangerrr]

You might think about finding you a sex buddy. Someone who can be "a friend with benefits".

I had a sex buddy a few years ago. It was nice. We rarely had sex, but when we did, it was just because we had the "urge". Other than that, we just hung out with each other and had fun going out doing things.

Just a thought....

FWB is just perfect for me, but with all the "hot" guys around me i don't have a chance. i swear i don't look for perfection, i am into very avg looking guys, but those guys always go for the hotter guys. i used to be considered very attrractive but now i am insecure to take my shirt off even in front of str8 ppl.