I think a DP has absolutely nothing to do with the other guy, and really wouldn't have a problem with it at all, I don't think there is anything bi involved in that, so...
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I suppose it depends who you are double penetrating Questionman... 
Your story interests me in that you think that the experience was incomplete. Apart from him coming into your mouth, what else would you have liked to experience with him? Would you have been interested in experiencing anal sex? Or being blown by him?
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no, i don't think i would have been interested in anal sex no matter how drunk we were, i just think at the time i figured if i was gonna experience blowing someone, then i was gonna go for the whole experience and make him come in mouth to see what that felt like. yet, even though he was the one who started the whole thing, he did not wanna do that, which i thought was strange at that point.
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oh and when i talked about dp i meant on a woman of course.
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questionman Wrote:no, i don't think i would have been interested in anal sex no matter how drunk we were, i just think at the time i figured if i was gonna experience blowing someone, then i was gonna go for the whole experience and make him come in mouth to see what that felt like. yet, even though he was the one who started the whole thing, he did not wanna do that, which i thought was strange at that point.
Maybe he thought going all the way with that was really too gay for his own liking? Or maybe he was thinking that he wouldn't like some guy coming into his own mouth, so he acted upon that thought? Maybe he wasn't all that much into the scene, and only went along (after the initial suggestion) because you were up for it? Maybe he'd have curtailed the experience sooner, had it been only his choice?
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i don't know, it's all possible but for all i could tell he was really enjoying it, as he stopped me several times cause he was about to come... i don' think he wasn't into it at all. but maybe yes, he didn't wanna cross a certain line maybe...
i think he was surprised by my acting on his suggestion, and by how he thought i seemed "experienced" at this even though i wasn't at all.
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questionman Wrote:i don't know why i found it sexy, in a way it was like a porno maybe, but at the time i had mixed feelings about the whole thing... i was drunk and high, and that always makes you horny, but the next day i hated the thought, it took me years to come to terms with the fact that it was no big deal, and that there was a big sexy component to the whole thing.
now the thought of that night is a turn-on, but i would not wanna do that with anybody else, certainly not a gay person. this friend and i were close, we even had a threesome with my ex-gf before this happened, so i guess i felt like there was no gay component in all this, whatever that means, nothing, i know.
i am just very surprised that after 5 years now i think i would do it one more time with him just so we could have the complete experience, which we didn't.
funnily enough, when we had that threesome with my ex gf, it was again him who backed out and refused to try DP even though we were dying to try that. go figure.
oh and i listed myself as monogamous straight relationship because i couldn't find "straight single", but i am single so i could do whatever i wanted, just not interested.
I can't judge whether or not your experience is gay, I don't think being gay is about what you do as much as it is about what you want and what you feel. I think though, that you might benefit from hearing about my first experience with a man so I will tell you. I was 21, I didn't really know I liked men, I had watched some gay porn but that was it. There was a guy who lived in my building named Jesse, and one evening when the power went out, a group of us had gathered in the common kitchen and were drinking. After a while the landlord kicked us out of the kitchen so the group went to Jesse's room and continued the party. As the night went on the group got smaller and smaller until it was just Jesse and I, we talked about a lot of things, life, love, sex, everything, after a while Jesse revealed to me that he liked me and that if I ever wanted to fool around with a guy he'd love to be that guy. He was a really cute guy and by that time I was fairly drunk and pretty horny, after a while of putting off and talking about other things I went to the bathroom, and while I was pissing I actually made a conscious decision that if Jesse pressed I would go for it. I came back to his room and we chatted for maybe 30 seconds before Jesse grabbed my dick and said so when do I get to suck on this, and I went with my decision. Afterward I felt really dirty, I didn't know how to deal with what had happened and how I felt about it. It took me a couple of months to really come to terms with it, and by the time I had sorted out the mess in my head it was way too late for Jesse and I, but I learned a lot about myself. I'm not saying you're in the same situation, I just think you might benefit from hearing how I discovered I like men, I hope it helps.
Richard
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ardus Wrote:I can't judge whether or not your experience is gay, I don't think being gay is about what you do as much as it is about what you want and what you feel. I think though, that you might benefit from hearing about my first experience with a man so I will tell you. I was 21, I didn't really know I liked men, I had watched some gay porn but that was it. There was a guy who lived in my building named Jesse, and one evening when the power went out, a group of us had gathered in the common kitchen and were drinking. After a while the landlord kicked us out of the kitchen so the group went to Jesse's room and continued the party. As the night went on the group got smaller and smaller until it was just Jesse and I, we talked about a lot of things, life, love, sex, everything, after a while Jesse revealed to me that he liked me and that if I ever wanted to fool around with a guy he'd love to be that guy. He was a really cute guy and by that time I was fairly drunk and pretty horny, after a while of putting off and talking about other things I went to the bathroom, and while I was pissing I actually made a conscious decision that if Jesse pressed I would go for it. I came back to his room and we chatted for maybe 30 seconds before Jesse grabbed my dick and said so when do I get to suck on this, and I went with my decision. Afterward I felt really dirty, I didn't know how to deal with what had happened and how I felt about it. It took me a couple of months to really come to terms with it, and by the time I had sorted out the mess in my head it was way too late for Jesse and I, but I learned a lot about myself. I'm not saying you're in the same situation, I just think you might benefit from hearing how I discovered I like men, I hope it helps.
Richard
Like your story, Richard. It's quite hot.
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As I've repeated on here, and this will echo what some others have said, but I believe that people that might fall in bisexual territory are not just 50/50.... besides your encounter, you say you've enjoyed gay porn a little... it's possible you could be bi but say 95% attracted to women and 5% attracted to men. There's no hard evidence but I've seen too many people attracted to both but leaning one way. There is nothing wrong with that and it doesn't make you a hypocrite if you are truly attracted to women and wishing to pursue women.... though perhaps some other guy will come along and like your friend make you reconsider who you would be with. Just be honest with yourself and it will begin to work itself out.
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yes, i think that while i am not gay cause i could never be with a man in a relationship, or even be attracted to one, let alone kiss him, there is maybe some bi attitude that makes me excited about that night and the stuff i did, and waht i would have liked to do, and that is obviously not straight though it is not dominant...
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