09-15-2012, 04:42 AM
Sorry, I am just SO FUCKING MAD! Can't vent to Facebook because of all the mutual friends.
The ever-angry ex is here to be w/the kids this weekend. Pissy about the house not being spotless, dishes piled up, and who KNOWS what else! Roared at the little guy over something stupid, and he's been here less than two hours. Slamming dishes around as he does my dishes (which I tried to do, but NO, the steaming pile of killer vibes was too much).
Does he want to hear actual good job news? No. He has his fucking mind made up I'm a horrible mom, and he's pissed he has to drive three hours to see his kids. Only to come to a messy house. Never mind that I have a chronic, sometimes real bad, autoimmune illness, and never mind that I've been trying to work through an issue regarding potential work.
Nope. I'm just a useless lazy twat (my words in his mouth--he won't say anything, just fumes). I wish I could make him stay at a hotel, but it's part of the agreement for "letting" me and the kids move three hours away. I'm seriously reconsidering that part of it. But lawyers are really, really expensive.
For the record: Yes, the house is messy, but it's not dangerous or unhealthy. There are two kids and a chronically ill adult with little support. Of COURSE it's messy!
There are a few reasons I left, and this is one of the biggies. I can't believe I had to deal with this every fucking day!
I want to put a fist through the wall!
And folks, this is one of those things that can happen when you marry someone you don't love. Just. Don't. Do. It. Don't. I would never trade my kids for a take-back, but it makes me angry that we both got married knowing we were just good friends (ha.). Not necessarily sexuality, but more like the fear that if we didn't take the chance then, it would never come around again.
I hate hating this, because if it didn't happen, I wouldn't have the kids, but on the other hand, it's time thrown away that could have been spent with someone I could really sink my heart into.
All the gods forbid he learns the other reasons why I left. Custody will suddenly be an issue. If he doesn't try something as it is.
ARGH!
//end vent, and thank you for listening.
The ever-angry ex is here to be w/the kids this weekend. Pissy about the house not being spotless, dishes piled up, and who KNOWS what else! Roared at the little guy over something stupid, and he's been here less than two hours. Slamming dishes around as he does my dishes (which I tried to do, but NO, the steaming pile of killer vibes was too much).
Does he want to hear actual good job news? No. He has his fucking mind made up I'm a horrible mom, and he's pissed he has to drive three hours to see his kids. Only to come to a messy house. Never mind that I have a chronic, sometimes real bad, autoimmune illness, and never mind that I've been trying to work through an issue regarding potential work.
Nope. I'm just a useless lazy twat (my words in his mouth--he won't say anything, just fumes). I wish I could make him stay at a hotel, but it's part of the agreement for "letting" me and the kids move three hours away. I'm seriously reconsidering that part of it. But lawyers are really, really expensive.
For the record: Yes, the house is messy, but it's not dangerous or unhealthy. There are two kids and a chronically ill adult with little support. Of COURSE it's messy!
There are a few reasons I left, and this is one of the biggies. I can't believe I had to deal with this every fucking day!
I want to put a fist through the wall!
And folks, this is one of those things that can happen when you marry someone you don't love. Just. Don't. Do. It. Don't. I would never trade my kids for a take-back, but it makes me angry that we both got married knowing we were just good friends (ha.). Not necessarily sexuality, but more like the fear that if we didn't take the chance then, it would never come around again.
I hate hating this, because if it didn't happen, I wouldn't have the kids, but on the other hand, it's time thrown away that could have been spent with someone I could really sink my heart into.
All the gods forbid he learns the other reasons why I left. Custody will suddenly be an issue. If he doesn't try something as it is.
ARGH!
//end vent, and thank you for listening.
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