09-23-2012, 01:25 AM
I went to a reunion at a local bar/club for UMASS students/gratuates last night. Before that I met up with a few friends from my graduating class. I sure missed them.
At the club it became clear to me that I was the only one in the group that still hasn't found someone that I can call my partner. Most of my friends are dating or seeing someone, and sometimes I feel a bit left out. I keep telling myself that my time will come. But then I question myself. If I'm not actively seeking or pursuing, how will that opportunity present itself?
My biggest dilemma is the fact that my friends are unaware of my sexuality. I simply don't feel comfortable presenting the topic unless it's directly brought up. But, if they never suspect then how or why would they ask? This may seem like a silly dilemma but I can feel it deep down inside me. A constant nagging, a desire to be liberated from this burden of holding something like this in.
I've had this discussion with a close friend of mine. She's aware of this conflicting struggle that I have with myself. I want to come out but I don't want to turn it into a big deal. It simpy goes against my inner principle.
I was hoping someone could give some input on the matter. I know ultimately I have to make the decision of bringing up the topic myself or waiting for the moment to present itself. Is patience the answer?
At the club it became clear to me that I was the only one in the group that still hasn't found someone that I can call my partner. Most of my friends are dating or seeing someone, and sometimes I feel a bit left out. I keep telling myself that my time will come. But then I question myself. If I'm not actively seeking or pursuing, how will that opportunity present itself?
My biggest dilemma is the fact that my friends are unaware of my sexuality. I simply don't feel comfortable presenting the topic unless it's directly brought up. But, if they never suspect then how or why would they ask? This may seem like a silly dilemma but I can feel it deep down inside me. A constant nagging, a desire to be liberated from this burden of holding something like this in.
I've had this discussion with a close friend of mine. She's aware of this conflicting struggle that I have with myself. I want to come out but I don't want to turn it into a big deal. It simpy goes against my inner principle.
I was hoping someone could give some input on the matter. I know ultimately I have to make the decision of bringing up the topic myself or waiting for the moment to present itself. Is patience the answer?
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