This is why I don't let my walls come down!!

[archubbycub]

So I talked to him tonight and I told him that if I was being too needy or to pushy that I was sorry and that I didn't want to do anything to push him away or lose him. His response was he had just been busy and stressed out. But then he came back with, "I think we need a break in the relationship."

He told me that his focus right now is school and his career and that he felt like he was just stringing me along. I did everything I could to convince him that it wasn't like that and that no matter what I would wait for him no matter how long it takes. But he just kept insisting that it wasn't fair for me to do that.

He said that he would always love me and that he would always be there for me, but that he didn't want me waisting my life waiting on him. That he wanted to "chase his dream" and he wanted me to chase mine as well.

What a fool I've been, thinking that some 19 year old kid could ever love me the way I love him. This is exactly why I don't let my walls come down. Every time I do I end up getting hurt. I should have known this could never work out. What was I thinking?