10-16-2012, 08:00 PM
Hi,
I am a single straight woman. I am very aware and a little too self-conscious at the moment that I really do not fit the general profile here so I hope you will give me sometime before thinking I must be weird (maybe my self-consciousness is talking here, b ecause I am feeling really like i am running naked through a crowd.)
The reason I am here on this forum is the following: (sorry, not a day in my life did I manage to make things succinct so just hang in there)
About 4 years ago, life started happening. as a result of that about 2 years ago I started having a lot of time on my hands. I am of an older generation, politics and advertisement annoy me to no end, so I do not have a tv at home (Believe me I know its unusual. I have been told enough times) and I like to read. Even though I am not blessed with burdening smarts nor the looks actually, but that is irrelevant here; I am still able to navigate through the internet, and I like it, because I am not a very social person. Well, not anymore anyway. I like the distance internet puts me between me and the others. In the service of making this as short as possible, I first discovered manga on the net. Then it was anime, And one blessed day, I came across yaoi. I have no idea if you know but in case you don't it is japanese version of boy-love genre. gay love stories. They differ from fluffy to smutty, And I fell in love with it. Here for the benefit of persons who don't know anything about yaoi, I have read online, and I can imagine (but I can't say for sure); that yaoi doesn't have really anything to do with being gay. Anyhoo, from there I got curious and checked out gay porn, which I found very attractive. (I swear I am a normal person, I am not a freak or something, at least I don't think I am, My point is usually I am not a very porny person, not that I am not a sexual person, you know what; I am going to stop this right now. because I don't see a way out here.)
I have got some questions - really only a few, at least at the moment - in regards to being gay and gay-sex. And I have nobody I can ask the questions to. So I googled for online gay-forums and I found this one. This is the main reason why I am here.
That said, I do not wish to offend anybody. If this is offensive to you, I do apologize. That is not my intention.
To my person, I am in my 40's. I am a single straight woman by choice (ok the single part, the rest wasn't really my doing), though if I am honest I don't think men would line up to date me, or to marry me.
I like persons, but people in general are in my opinion a useless bunch. I can't stand politicians, lawyers and doctors, yet I recognize the fact that they are necessary evils (I am not that militant about them I just like to avoid them whenever, wherever however possible) and yet I have 4 doctors 1 lawyer and a politician (I suppose I have to call him that he is sort of the head of the district, I do not know the appropriate word in English for it); honestly, maybe that is the reason why I can't like those professions. Freud is dead, so the answer is anybody's guess.
I believe deeply in God but I think organized religion is a pile of shit. Again, only MY belief, MY opinion. Everybody is entitled to theirs, that is my belief. And If I had to choose one religion I would go with Buddhism, except I really really like meat.
I love to read, I have an eclectic music taste. I do listen to several genres, as long as they have a melody and a rhythm, even some rave music. But don't ever ask me their titles, cause I do not know.
I have 3 persons whom I call friends, then a bunch of acquaintances, and a ginormous group of people who claim the description family. To my knowledge I have no archenemies. But I am certain, a lot of people who don't like me.
These are the main points I can think of, if you have any questions to my person I will answer them to the best of my knowledge and conscious.
And when you feel comfortable enough with me, and trust me enough I would like to ask you about being gay, and yes also the sexual aspects. Again, please let me assure you, my purpose is not to offend anybody, I am really just curious about "being gay" -(sorry, that sounds retarded to me but I didn't know how to say it better.)
best regards
Lili
ps; in the name of full disclosure, Lili is just an internet name, But it is my usual internet name. (I hope that make sense to you.)
I am a single straight woman. I am very aware and a little too self-conscious at the moment that I really do not fit the general profile here so I hope you will give me sometime before thinking I must be weird (maybe my self-consciousness is talking here, b ecause I am feeling really like i am running naked through a crowd.)
The reason I am here on this forum is the following: (sorry, not a day in my life did I manage to make things succinct so just hang in there)
About 4 years ago, life started happening. as a result of that about 2 years ago I started having a lot of time on my hands. I am of an older generation, politics and advertisement annoy me to no end, so I do not have a tv at home (Believe me I know its unusual. I have been told enough times) and I like to read. Even though I am not blessed with burdening smarts nor the looks actually, but that is irrelevant here; I am still able to navigate through the internet, and I like it, because I am not a very social person. Well, not anymore anyway. I like the distance internet puts me between me and the others. In the service of making this as short as possible, I first discovered manga on the net. Then it was anime, And one blessed day, I came across yaoi. I have no idea if you know but in case you don't it is japanese version of boy-love genre. gay love stories. They differ from fluffy to smutty, And I fell in love with it. Here for the benefit of persons who don't know anything about yaoi, I have read online, and I can imagine (but I can't say for sure); that yaoi doesn't have really anything to do with being gay. Anyhoo, from there I got curious and checked out gay porn, which I found very attractive. (I swear I am a normal person, I am not a freak or something, at least I don't think I am, My point is usually I am not a very porny person, not that I am not a sexual person, you know what; I am going to stop this right now. because I don't see a way out here.)
I have got some questions - really only a few, at least at the moment - in regards to being gay and gay-sex. And I have nobody I can ask the questions to. So I googled for online gay-forums and I found this one. This is the main reason why I am here.
That said, I do not wish to offend anybody. If this is offensive to you, I do apologize. That is not my intention.
To my person, I am in my 40's. I am a single straight woman by choice (ok the single part, the rest wasn't really my doing), though if I am honest I don't think men would line up to date me, or to marry me.
I like persons, but people in general are in my opinion a useless bunch. I can't stand politicians, lawyers and doctors, yet I recognize the fact that they are necessary evils (I am not that militant about them I just like to avoid them whenever, wherever however possible) and yet I have 4 doctors 1 lawyer and a politician (I suppose I have to call him that he is sort of the head of the district, I do not know the appropriate word in English for it); honestly, maybe that is the reason why I can't like those professions. Freud is dead, so the answer is anybody's guess.
I believe deeply in God but I think organized religion is a pile of shit. Again, only MY belief, MY opinion. Everybody is entitled to theirs, that is my belief. And If I had to choose one religion I would go with Buddhism, except I really really like meat.
I love to read, I have an eclectic music taste. I do listen to several genres, as long as they have a melody and a rhythm, even some rave music. But don't ever ask me their titles, cause I do not know.
I have 3 persons whom I call friends, then a bunch of acquaintances, and a ginormous group of people who claim the description family. To my knowledge I have no archenemies. But I am certain, a lot of people who don't like me.
These are the main points I can think of, if you have any questions to my person I will answer them to the best of my knowledge and conscious.
And when you feel comfortable enough with me, and trust me enough I would like to ask you about being gay, and yes also the sexual aspects. Again, please let me assure you, my purpose is not to offend anybody, I am really just curious about "being gay" -(sorry, that sounds retarded to me but I didn't know how to say it better.)
best regards
Lili
ps; in the name of full disclosure, Lili is just an internet name, But it is my usual internet name. (I hope that make sense to you.)
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