Childhood friend and me....something weird is going on

[Justinintendo]

It sounds like you are developing strong feelings for this person. You are 17 years old, you are still running on hormones. Most people don't come to terms with their sexuality until much much later. Everybody is bisexual to some regard, there are just different levels. From what I see here, it seems that there is a romantic attraction, but not yet a sexual one. I wouldn't throw away a great friendship just because you're straight and don't want to be attracted to a guy. It seems to me like he may feel the same way about you. Just test the waters a little. There's nothing wrong with loving another man. Men are strong, confident, goal-oriented, charismatic, and charming people, but capable of deep, emotional bonding. There's nothing wrong with that.

Don't run from your feelings, embrace them. You've been friends for this long, maybe this is the beginning of a lasting true friendship, a romantic relationship, or hell, maybe you're soulmates and you just haven't discovered it yet. Just go with your heart.