08-07-2014, 02:42 AM
hi everyone
im currently in a relationship with my perfect match. we've been together almost a year now.
however, whilst trying to make friends with other gay men, I always end up in uncomfortable situations. and there is one guy in particular that has made me feel extremely guilty and paranoid.
it started a few months ago when i started talking to a guy who seemed nice, and straight away i always make it clear that i have a boyfriend and im only looking for friends. he asked if i wanted to meet up and have a friendly chat. so he picked me up in his car and an hour later in a car park, we were talking and he got his dick out. he started wanking and trying to make me wank with him. he grabbed my head and tried to make me kiss him and suck his dick and then he tried to get my dick out and suck me off but i pushed him away. he was my only way of getting home so i sat there trying to avoid sexual contact while he had a wank. when it was over he took me home.
I felt like it was all my fault what had happened. I havent told my boyfriend cause I dont want to upset him.
now just a few days ago, after talking to this same guy again i thought we were going for a walk along a busy footpath for a chat. once again he picked me up and we were driving when he decided to take us somewhere else. we ended up walking through a field and when we got into some trees he pulled his trousers down and kept asking me to fuck him. i refused so he walked into the trees and i waited in the open for a few minutes. he called me to come in cause he said it was "cool". he was waiting for me so i thought id go in and if he tried anything i could always leave. i found him and he got his dick out again and started wanking asking me to suck it and fuck him. he then said i should wank as well and that we would race to cum. I said no. I turned away from him and when he was done he got angry with me. We walked back to the car and he took me home.
I feel so disgusted with myself for putting myself in these situations. I'm also panicking that he will tell a mutual friend of my boyfriends what happened and that my boyfriend will believe him and not me. I can't bear the thought of him breaking up our relationship. I feel so guilty and I never wanted any of it to happen.
What should I do?
im currently in a relationship with my perfect match. we've been together almost a year now.
however, whilst trying to make friends with other gay men, I always end up in uncomfortable situations. and there is one guy in particular that has made me feel extremely guilty and paranoid.
it started a few months ago when i started talking to a guy who seemed nice, and straight away i always make it clear that i have a boyfriend and im only looking for friends. he asked if i wanted to meet up and have a friendly chat. so he picked me up in his car and an hour later in a car park, we were talking and he got his dick out. he started wanking and trying to make me wank with him. he grabbed my head and tried to make me kiss him and suck his dick and then he tried to get my dick out and suck me off but i pushed him away. he was my only way of getting home so i sat there trying to avoid sexual contact while he had a wank. when it was over he took me home.
I felt like it was all my fault what had happened. I havent told my boyfriend cause I dont want to upset him.
now just a few days ago, after talking to this same guy again i thought we were going for a walk along a busy footpath for a chat. once again he picked me up and we were driving when he decided to take us somewhere else. we ended up walking through a field and when we got into some trees he pulled his trousers down and kept asking me to fuck him. i refused so he walked into the trees and i waited in the open for a few minutes. he called me to come in cause he said it was "cool". he was waiting for me so i thought id go in and if he tried anything i could always leave. i found him and he got his dick out again and started wanking asking me to suck it and fuck him. he then said i should wank as well and that we would race to cum. I said no. I turned away from him and when he was done he got angry with me. We walked back to the car and he took me home.
I feel so disgusted with myself for putting myself in these situations. I'm also panicking that he will tell a mutual friend of my boyfriends what happened and that my boyfriend will believe him and not me. I can't bear the thought of him breaking up our relationship. I feel so guilty and I never wanted any of it to happen.
What should I do?
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