Help!

[mrforester272]

my country is very religious country where being gay is against the law and against our religion and when it comes to being gay the society sees it as a bad thing (most of them). I don't want to leave this country because I love the country (no tax, free medical, free education and etc.) and my family.

I came out earlier this year to my closest friends and cousins but not my family.

Because of this sometimes I have a suicidal thoughts. I am kind of lost and don't know what to do?