no more love

[Anonymous]

I can say that I loved my straight friend. Now its over. I just don't love him like that anymore. I want to love him again. I just miss it. When he calls me, i don't even want to pick up the phone anymore. It used to be that every time some one called me i was hoping it was him. When i see him, its just whatever. How it used to be was i would walk up to him smiling. Just to clarify, we loved each other, not like relationship kind of love. On another post http://gayspeak.com/showthread.php?p=483415#post483415 (ideas around love). I don't know where I'm at with this guy. Maybe we see each other so often that it just ran dry. Maybe its a good thing, but i don't want it to end. I still care about him but its not the same.