01-17-2009, 12:46 AM
Hi all,
bit of sad git really living in Cheltenham, UK. I wish I could be 14 now in todays climate, things might have been different. Believe me when I was a teenager (70's) no-one in their right mind would have admitted to being anything less than fully straight. Anyway, I didn't want to admit it to myself.
In truth at that age, and for some years really, any thought of sexual contact with my own sex didn't appeal to me, although from soon after puberty I've had a bit of an obscession with male genitalia. I've been with a few women, indeed was married for a long time, and was devastated when it broke up, and have a family. Same sex contacts are limited to joint, as in adjacent but not mutual, wanking sessions in my school years - a long time ago.
I'd like to experience everything, as in top and bottom, before its too late, but am frightened of the whole gay scene and of anyone else finding out, especially my family. Its also difficult to see how, at my age, one could be confident of finding a clean (as in no STDs ) friend with whom to explore the unknown.
So, as I said, sad git really. Still hoping for education.
bit of sad git really living in Cheltenham, UK. I wish I could be 14 now in todays climate, things might have been different. Believe me when I was a teenager (70's) no-one in their right mind would have admitted to being anything less than fully straight. Anyway, I didn't want to admit it to myself.
In truth at that age, and for some years really, any thought of sexual contact with my own sex didn't appeal to me, although from soon after puberty I've had a bit of an obscession with male genitalia. I've been with a few women, indeed was married for a long time, and was devastated when it broke up, and have a family. Same sex contacts are limited to joint, as in adjacent but not mutual, wanking sessions in my school years - a long time ago.
I'd like to experience everything, as in top and bottom, before its too late, but am frightened of the whole gay scene and of anyone else finding out, especially my family. Its also difficult to see how, at my age, one could be confident of finding a clean (as in no STDs ) friend with whom to explore the unknown.
So, as I said, sad git really. Still hoping for education.
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