Was I wrong

[Anonymous]

Hi all, I would just like to share what happened to me recently and if you think how I reacted was wrong..

I went on a date with a guy I met online, he is top and 10 years older, described himself as tall, exciting, honest.. we went to a cafe and it was fine, we got on quite well, I felt attracted to him, afterwards we walked to his car and he said it was fun and next time we can do something different

He messaged me a week later saying it was fun again and maybe one day we can do something else

a couple days later I said would you like to meet soon and he said he is busy at work, he travels a lot..

anyway over a month he just texts like "how are you" and I say I am fine but the conversation really never gets past that point..

and I start to get a little irritated, I feel lonely and this is not fun or exciting..

I say like, you are not asking to see me and he say's I'm being impatient and I say okay sorry and then a few days later he messages me "how are you" and it goes on how it was

3 times this happened until finally I said "bye!" and he says "okay you don't seem to understand I am very busy and if you keep saying bye then I guess we should forget about it"

I've since sent him some quite abusive messages since then and he doesn't message back anymore, I was already fragile going into a date, I always meet thoughtless guys and this period has really left me feeling hopeless and I want to pour all my scorn onto him, my messages started as critical and now it's just name calling, he's the first thing I think about when I wake up, for nearly 2 months I twiddled my thumbs

I'm afraid of dating again should I be made to feel invisible and like nothing