Any advice would be greatly appreciated please..?

[Cheet0V90]

Well, this event or more a few events have led me to. Where I am now, inclusive of my questioningredients of my own sexuality. It took me 6 years to get my degree (yes, IK, but I changed majors, so..) I oneed day found myself looking at a video online, that was supposed to be two ladies making out around a "hot dog" attached to a gentleman. I came to find out, that it was a gal who had a couple guys caged up, and they had to SUCK on each other... That was a moment of self discovery to say the very least...

Then I decided to head online to ask others anonymously if they had ever been in a similar scenario, wanting to trade off on that. I found someone, amd we got together twice, never swallowing, but it was close to say very least.

Nowadays I am feeling like I want another go with a punishment, but I am unable to do so as I still live with family, amd they have no clue as to any of my let's say "alternate" desires...

What can/should I do, without leading them on to any of this? Honestly don't believe they could take knowing that about me, nor would they be able to handle it as adults should...