I'm alive. Thank God!

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It's been 24 hours since I was about to die...

Yesterday at around 6 pm I finished teaching my English class and I headed out to go home. I had my headphones on and as I was crossing the street, I look over and saw this car driving towards me. By the time I saw it, it was too late... The adrenaline kicked in and everything played in slow mo, I felt myself getting picked up by the car, felt myself in the air, and then I hit the concrete hard street. It was so painful that I started to scream from the top of my lungs. Screamed so loud that I hurt my vocal cords, so loud everyone heard it.
Lucky for me, the driver got off the car and came to check in on me, he and other people helped me in his car and took me to the hospital. At the time I was in utter shock. I didn't know what happened to me, thoughts were racing through my mind... My life, My friends, my dreams, what is going to happen to me? Will I live? Will I die?

I got off the car on a wheel chair and was helped inside, Though I was still in shock. When I was admitted into the ER the doctor was talking to me but I didn't answer, I was just staring at the ground... Panting!
They took me to the x ray room to check if there were any broken bones, but.. Thank God, no broken bones... Just pumps and bruises and scratched skin here and there. I got out of the hospital and the guy who hit me drove me home, I called my family on the way back and when I got there, I could barely do anything but luckily I was out of that shock. So I sat down and thought..

How lucky am I to survive this? I was given another chance to live and actually enjoy life. My whole perception of life changed and I saw there was no reason to ever stress or be angry about anything ever...
It's difficult for us humans to realize this but life truly is PRECIOUS cuz within seconds I could have lost mine... And I survived. So I took it as a chance to text and call the people that I love and tell them how much I love them. I texted about 10 people...

then my mom came in and started nagging about how this is connected to pleasing her and that I should make her happy so things like this shouldn't happen to me. The usual line of bullshit she throws at me and starts making it like it's about herself... Then grand ol' dad joins in and starts adding more bullshit to the mix. I was about to die and there they were, talking about themselves like nothing happened to me. What a horrible family I live with.
I just shook my head then said I need to rest and I can't talk to you guys. I went to bed and started reflecting on everything. I realized that I gave a lot of people more value than the value they should be given, I treat people nicer than they deserve and lots of people don't deserve the love I show them because after some hours there were three people who I texted and considered to be very close to me, didn't reply to my text or reach out to me in anyway... It's been 24 hours since the accident and none of them reached out to me.

I wanted to confront them because it's really annoying what they did but I've been told to leave it at that and not talk to them. It's weird that I didn't hear from them and idk what to do ... And maybe what happened to me was for a reason, to show me who really cares and who doesn't? To show me how precious life is and how I need to get on my grind and start working really hard for the life that I want so that if I go.. I'll know there were no regrets about my life. So many people that I keep in my life for no actual reason, I just keep them there just so they don't get pissed or angry.. I just think I need to be alone for sometime to reevaluate everything in my life. Goals, people, feelings, thoughts, emotions and all else which is why I went off facebook so that I can be away.

anyway, I'm so happy to be here typing this. It's like I'm back to life to tell each and everyone of you guys who were supporting and stood by my side when I truly needed it that I LOVE YOU and you mean a lot to me, although I haven't met any of you in real life so all the more reason to love you people for your support, guidance and encouragement.

Thank you! <3 <3