Unemployable

[supasyd]

I feel depressed about my life which is going nowhere. I recently graduated from university with a first class degree buy can't even get a job in McDonald's or Tesco. I am long term unemployed and nobody is interested. I really want to earn money. I've worked in a factory two times but both times I got suicidal because I hated it so much. I am really slow and weak and one I got sacked on the second day because they thought I was doing it on purpose. Factory work just makes me really depressed yet it's the only work available and I can't get to the industrial estate anyway because I can't drive and there is no chance of me affording driving lessons. I would live on benefits forever but it's just not enough money. I have long given up on actually having a career and feel totally hopeless because even if I ever do get a job (I feel like I have applied everywhere) what if it makes me feel like I did in the factory? I am a slow learner and have no practical/physical skills despite the fact I'm good at being charming at the interview, I always fuck it up on a trial run and never get employed because I am so useless. I am just totally unemployable and don't know what to do