Open Relationship

[Bobwehadababyitsaboy]

II’m a married man and I want an open relationship. I don’t feel like I please my husband. He rarely cums with me and isn’t really interested in sex with me in my opinion. I have done everything I thought I could do please him. I’m oral in every way and as a top I think I’m good but will take pointers but he offers nothing. He tops me and doesn’t cum. He doesn’t have a problem. I was his friend before his husband and I know the stories. I never felt like this in my life so it’s new. I’m use to mutual pleasure and everything being happy. I have blamed my body. I use to be 400 pounds. Now I’m 200 I have loose skin on my abdomen but it’s not bad in my opinion and my ass is not like it use to be. He never met the 400 pound me just 200. I have thought maybe it’s my butt? Maybe my stomach? I think I am an attractive guy but honestly I don’t even know now. I asked him to have an open relationship. I love him but starting to not desire him. I don’t see the point, I beg you for sex and even if he gives in I still feel low. Like I never in my life had to beg my partners for sex. It’s just been a normal give and take, balance. I have went over so many situations in my head and one thing that always sticks out is him telling me the person who is less interested in sex is the one who runs the relationship. Well now the attraction is low and having sex is like, why? You don’t want me sexually. Or maybe I’m just bad in bed. I mean I’ll do anything sexually I’m down for whatever but he is usually the one who does nothing, rarely oral sex, doesn’t really “touch me” I honestly feel like I do all the work. So I don’t get it? Am I bad in bed and just don’t realize it. Or is my husband not into me. Ugh I feel so dumb asking this but I’m extremely embarrassed