Annoyance...

[InbetweenDreams]

@ChadCoxRox I am his first "real" boyfriend. So this is new to him and I am trying to be tolerant. He does suffer from anxiety and perhaps some social awkwardness, not sure entirely what his deal is. He's an only child to parents who like to hoard stuff and have 10 cats, he's picked up on some of the collecting stuff. And all that is fine. He doesn't seem to have much of any drive for anything except antiques. He doesn't know what he wants to do about anything it seems. Doesn't know what kind of job he wants but somehow he expects to jump right into something and while the odds aren't zero, it is just unlikely without experience or education in a related field to do so.

Nothing has really changed since I last posted in November.

And to further confuse the issue I have been reconnecting with this girl I've known all the way back to 8th grade. I don't know if anything is there but I can't ignore that I really like her and always have. I have also not ever slept with a woman either, so I might be barking up the wrong tree. And , no, I have not made any moves or anything like that, we have hung out a couple times. She was in town for Thanksgiving and I had invited her over for dinner and went for a walk. That's about the extent of things. Likewise, if I am going to try to make things work with him I need to put that shit to bed.

I feel like staying with him is that I will have to nag him to do things (like look for a job) and sooner or later he will resent me for it. I feel like I am often nagging him to do adult things and seems that his comfort zone isn't very far from home. He's just been sheltered but I don't think it is because his parents kept him from anything, it seems that he never really cared to explore anything or have an interest. I don't know that his ego is fragile as he constantly needs affirmation. Like if I don't call him he thinks I'm mad at him when I've called him the last several times and sent him text messages that he doesn't always respond to. It's become a bit of a drag.