10-02-2010, 01:41 AM
Hello folks....not exactly sure what I am looking for.....I gave up looking for answers a long time ago.......and life is a lot more complicated than I expected when I was young...
I am 42....been with the same girl 20yrs..married 14yrs...kids....etc etc and the only person I know who knows i'm.......Gay/Bi/doing my own thing...... is my long term gay friend/fuckbuddy of 13yrs......
I envy the posts in the "coming out" section....... but have never loved a man the way I love my wife.....never mind my family life and kids.......
am I living a lie or just making the best of what i've got....... I am not real big on the guilt stuff which certainly helps......
but that don't stop it being complicated........ am I the only one in this situation..... so metimes it sure feels like it :confused:
I am 42....been with the same girl 20yrs..married 14yrs...kids....etc etc and the only person I know who knows i'm.......Gay/Bi/doing my own thing...... is my long term gay friend/fuckbuddy of 13yrs......
I envy the posts in the "coming out" section....... but have never loved a man the way I love my wife.....never mind my family life and kids.......
am I living a lie or just making the best of what i've got....... I am not real big on the guilt stuff which certainly helps......
but that don't stop it being complicated........ am I the only one in this situation..... so metimes it sure feels like it :confused:
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