10-06-2010, 02:21 PM
I'm depressed. I have a bf and at the end of the month we suposse to have our 2 yrs toghetter aniverssary if we make it until then, we allmost
Breake up last week because i just didnt take it anymore and screamed at him, he allways wants to have the last word he allways does some things that he know i dont like, he told me even that i will end up alone, he says he's only joking, what hind of a joke is that? He also said that no one will love me and so on, just for fun, for his fun And my dyspare. We also have trust problems, he is bi, and after we spent valentines day in budapest taking him to some nice places renting a car and a hotel room and having a great time, i had to go from home for 4 days, and i had a feeling and installed some spy software on the pc, when i arrived home he waited me with dinner and a wellcome home written on the wall, the next day i looked in the pc and saw that he flirted with some girl a colegue of him wich i suspected that he may like her even though he denied that, he flirted and just for fun they sugessted that it would be something if they would have sex, THIS HAPPENED AFTER WE SPENT VALENTINES DAY AT BUDAEST, i conffronted him and he addmited that he talked but said it was just for fun nothing more. From then they and another girl are bfffffff and when i'm gonne they are having partys, she loves him i know that for sure, but he is saying that they are just bfffff and despite the fact that tey have many things in common he wants to be with me not with her. So i have to leave tommorow for 5 days and he made plans to jave a party at our house ahain with his bffff and the other girl, and i said no, so he got reall pissed off and said they will go to a gay club instead. I love him or at least i did, i have made many compromises for him and sacrifices, but i dont know what im feeling anymore, im allways sad, i want to be with him but i dont want, not like that, that girl and theyr bffff relationship is obssesing me to the point that i dont know if i have any feelings for him left, the past 2 weeks We had only arguments and i am so depressed I dont know what to do i have no ideea what im feeling anymore, and i have no clue where am i heading, i cryed these past day enough for a lifetime, now im just numb.
Ps. Sorry for my english and the long post.
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Breake up last week because i just didnt take it anymore and screamed at him, he allways wants to have the last word he allways does some things that he know i dont like, he told me even that i will end up alone, he says he's only joking, what hind of a joke is that? He also said that no one will love me and so on, just for fun, for his fun And my dyspare. We also have trust problems, he is bi, and after we spent valentines day in budapest taking him to some nice places renting a car and a hotel room and having a great time, i had to go from home for 4 days, and i had a feeling and installed some spy software on the pc, when i arrived home he waited me with dinner and a wellcome home written on the wall, the next day i looked in the pc and saw that he flirted with some girl a colegue of him wich i suspected that he may like her even though he denied that, he flirted and just for fun they sugessted that it would be something if they would have sex, THIS HAPPENED AFTER WE SPENT VALENTINES DAY AT BUDAEST, i conffronted him and he addmited that he talked but said it was just for fun nothing more. From then they and another girl are bfffffff and when i'm gonne they are having partys, she loves him i know that for sure, but he is saying that they are just bfffff and despite the fact that tey have many things in common he wants to be with me not with her. So i have to leave tommorow for 5 days and he made plans to jave a party at our house ahain with his bffff and the other girl, and i said no, so he got reall pissed off and said they will go to a gay club instead. I love him or at least i did, i have made many compromises for him and sacrifices, but i dont know what im feeling anymore, im allways sad, i want to be with him but i dont want, not like that, that girl and theyr bffff relationship is obssesing me to the point that i dont know if i have any feelings for him left, the past 2 weeks We had only arguments and i am so depressed I dont know what to do i have no ideea what im feeling anymore, and i have no clue where am i heading, i cryed these past day enough for a lifetime, now im just numb.
Ps. Sorry for my english and the long post.
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