Feel It's Finally Time To Come Out - Please Help!

[Strachan]

Hi Everyone, I'll try and keep this as brief as I can as nobody likes a thread that drones on forever!
Anyway I'm a 32 y.o. gay guy who has never come out. The biggest reason for this was I fought against my feelings for a long time as I didn't want to be gay, but finally 2 years ago I stop fighting it and accepted it - I am who I am and that's it.

Problem is I still haven't come out to anyone, I've always been too scared to do it. For all I know some of my family and friends may already suspect I'm gay, but I'm not really obvious so I can't say for sure. But I feel now that I just have to do it.

I've not been very well recently mentally, I've suffered greatly with anxiety and have just completed Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, which did not show up any major reason for why I've been feeling so anxious, APART from the fact I carry this massive emotional burden around with me everyday of being gay but living a lie.

I believe keeping all this bottled up inside me is the main cause of my anxiety, and it's the final push I needed to finally decide I have to come out. But still the thought of doing it scares me. I WANT to come out and tell everyone I'm gay though.

Please, can anyone on here give me some advice? I don't want to spend anymore of my life living a lie and carrying this around with me everyday. Once it's all out in the open I know It'll be a massive feeling of relief.

Thanks guys