Can sexual abuse be forgotten?

[Anonymous]

Is it possible to "forget" sexual abuse that happened in early childhood? I've been struggling with a lot of psychological issues throughout my life. I'm now 29 years old. I always felt like my father never really loved me that much. When I was a young child I used to get in trouble in school for exposing myself to other kids and drawing X-rated pictures and I had to live with that shame for a long time. In my teen years I tried to understand why I did those things but then I read that children act out when they are being sexually abused. I don't "remember" being abused that way but I used to have a lot of dreams about being molested or being chased by someone who was trying to "hurt" me. When I was a teen I was victimized by older men that I met online. When I was 18 and 19 I used to date men who were in their 40's and can only guess that maybe I was trying to find a "father" to love me. What I can say for sure is that even when I was very young I can remember feeling "damaged" if that makes any sense.