Straight Corporate Male Culture

[mooninleo]

Hey there,

I work for a large software company in the silicon valley. I work with like 20 other people, and they're mostly straight males, mostly asian.

And lets just say I can't stand them. At first I felt respected by each of them.. but lately they all hang out together and act chummy and 'rag' on eachother.. and its like all politeness and respect has flown out the F$$$$ING window.

And i just can't handle it. I hate this. I feel competely ignored for being gay or being special. And i Know its work.. so i'm professional.. .but I can't take the vibe. I'm gonna start sitting closer to all the girls in the office. Being the confident gay man has never come easy to me, as i'm usually pretty polite kind and quiet.. but UGH. these guys are aweful.

Anyone else deal with this? I can't take feeling like because i don't fit into their shitty group, that this means i'm better than them. Its how they act, competitive and cool.

Uggggggggh. What to do? thanx.