What I have longed for...

[Mr Hide]

Every since I can remember I have had thoughts about being close to another guy. I remember once having my best friend over for a sleep over and looking at him as we were watching TV. He was laying on the other bed in just his underwear totally unaware that he was turning me on. To this day I dream of what it would be like to hold and caress another man, and have him do the same to me. - But here I am...41 years old, and have never even had a blow job, from either a man or a woman.... my wife thinks just the thought of it disgusting.