What I have longed for...

[Mr Hide]

I could say the the exact same thing ... except those thoughts/feelings started somewhere in my 20's
(For me the feelings are more of being close with another guy..rather than just seaxual...but i also have feelings/attraction to women, nothing sexual tho )

I know exactly what you mean. A long time before I would allow myself to have sexual thoughts about a man, I would fantasize about just hugging a guy, and running my hands up and down his back. - Now, I think of the same thing...except we are both naked with hard dicks that are rubbing together.