11-04-2010, 05:22 PM
I was @ the Rawhide 2010 bar in French Quarter, New Orleans Louisiana for Southern Decadence when a guy came up to me and started rubbing my chest asking me if I was with anyone. I stated yes, but that didn't seem to bother him. Firstly, I am a Gay Man with trust issues with men. I don't have any male friends. Secondly, I have personal space issues due to child abuse and don't like to be touched unless I trust the person-- refer back to #1. Anyway, I got the sensation that he was only out for a one night stand as we were all leaving the next day because the celebration was over. I don't do hookups or one night stands so I brushed him off. I felt so horrible- like my standards are too high, because believe me I don't get hit on a lot unless it's gross older men or people that look like me. I should just take what I can get right. My problem is that I'm a typical BEAR and am attracted to muscular/handsome smooth men-- who probably wouldn't be interested in me. This is my life dilemma. Everyone I'm attracted to isn't attracted to me back, but I digress. The next morning we were getting our bags in preparation to leave the hotel and who do you think I saw at the bell hop baggage line-- yep. The same guy I turned down was now standing in my hotel right in front of me! Now, I feel even worse because he is hanging his head and won't even look in my direction. I feel terrible like I had ruined his whole weekend, but he wanted something I just couldn't do. But then I start to think that he was ashamed because he got shot down by a "ugly" person who should have been desperate and a "sure thing" and then thinking that I get pissed off! Anyway to whoever you were, I sincerely apologize if I hurt your feelings back there-- it was not intentional, it's just that I have TOO HIGH A MORAL CODE![/B]