I’m Gay and Unnerved

[Orangecola]

I've never had any intimate contact with a human being until a few days ago when I brought a guy home from the bar. The pretense was to share wine and play video games, but we made out. I've never been comfortable with myself because I feel like a loser for being attracted to guys, I sicken myself. Anyways he grabbed my crotch and I flipped out, probably because of a lot of inner turmoil, I grabbed him by the throat and slammed him against the wall, let him go and shouted him out of my house. I went into the bathroom and threw up.

I think it's just best if I stick to having friends and forget about sex. I sound depressed, I'm not. I'm just very touchy and awkward about this - I sound like a freaking drama queen.