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what should i do
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Ok so this is going to be a long post but my question revolvs around a semi long story so bear with me. I am bi curious and have not really told anyone. I am not one that really comes across as gay i dont think but who knows. I have been attracted to my friend of about five years for as long as i know him. We were best friends for about three years or so and we were very very close. I always was with him and his girlfriend hanging out and regrettfully doing alot of party drugs and going to raves. Me and him always and i mean like everyday joked relentlessly about the two of us being secret gay lovers mostly between ourselves and his girlfriend. I had a couple girlfriends in this perioud but they were mostly just sexual conquests and never lasted more than a couple months of dating/"making love". This flirting and joking went on for a good while and then they broke up after 2 1/2 years and this was his first girlfreind he was very very devestated. He went into this crazy slump where he never wanted to leave the house he just sat there making muysic day in and day out. I lost touch with him slightly really only seeing him like 6 times in six months after not missing a day for almost 2 years. When we hung out there was still that connection it was just different. When we were drunk we would rub up on eachother and be sorta discreetly touchy feely with eachother. This whole thing culminated one night when me him and another friend ate mushrooms. I was very out of it but from what i remember my best friend came out to me and said he was dating the other kid we were with at the house. I felt relieved and yet saddened these emotions made me do stupid things like try to fuck both of them. I licked my friends earlobe and grabbed his crotch. I grabbed the other kids crotch as well and he left immediately after. The next morning i woke up and no one was at the house. The other friend we were with never really talked to me again. My best friend however did and there was never really anything said about what had happened. We hung like once a month after that till he left for college and i moved to another town. I see him rarely and wheni do i dont have the guts to ask him if he is gay and have him be the first person i ever tell!? I am so confused i dont know if i can handle another blow to our friendship if he isnt. Should i just leave it alone or take the leap?:confused:
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what should i do - by techno - 12-21-2010, 07:54 AM
what should i do - by Sil - 12-21-2010, 12:03 PM
what should i do - by Mr. Not So Lonely - 12-21-2010, 10:21 PM
what should i do - by techno - 12-22-2010, 07:24 AM

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