Emotions all over the place

[NorCalGuy]

Hey guys,

First time poster here. Sorry it has to be about a break up. Well my bf dumped me about 3 weeks ago, and immidiatly like less than 2 days later already had another bf, whom he lives with now. They met less than a month ago and my bf and I lived together for close to a year.

Okay, I know the relationship is over. I'm trying to move on, but sometimes get really really sad. I know he wasn't good for me and I knew the relationship was going downhill, but why do I feel like this when my mind knows that he wasn't for me. I found out that he spent x-mas with his fam and his new bf and that really, really hurt since I was supposed to be with him.

I just wish I could snap out of it like he did and just move on. I guess what really, really hurts is to feel that I've lost my best friend, we've known each other for three years. I was easily replaceable. And how can someone just move on like that, like what we had was nothing. I wish I could just take a pill and feel back to normal again. I really hate feeling like this and don't ever wanna feel this pain ever again in my life. I would rather be single an not ever feel like this than meet someone and have it all go downhill. I'm not a person who turns to drugs, but I really wish there was something I could take.

I've read all the articles on the stages of grief and I think I might be at the anger or depression stage. I just feel really, really lonely right now and don't wanna let anyone close to me. Dating is the farthest thing on my mind right now. I just wanna know how others dealt with this.

Thanks