im a disapontment and a burden

[ZombieSlayer]

Okay so i feel like im disapointing my mom by living how i want to.
Im not the daugter she wants and i feel like im disapointing her.
we went school shopping and it seemed like it killed her to by me all boys stuff this year.
i wish i could be a normal girl and think like a normal girl.
Im not a girl tho. Im a boy trapped in a girls body.
when i came out to my mom she told me she didnt understand it and everything.
but she told me she cant stop me from lving my life how i want to.
she still calls me by my birthname and female pronuns.
I know she wishes i would be a regular girl but i cant do it.
Im a boy.
I feel like a burden on her. i just make things complicated.
I also feel like a burden when it comes to my girlfriend.
shes super supportive and everything and treats me like the guy i am on the inside and
lets me vent to her about my pain of being in the wrong body and wanting a sex change and Hormones but i feel like a cry baby coming to her and i feel like i should deal with it on my own. I feel bad that i go to her about everything. She lets me know shes here for me but i still feel like a burden.
I also feel like less of a man some times... cos i have womans parts and im a bit femme for a dude. I cry alot and have stuff going on and im emotional.
i hate feeling like this.