I just don't get it

[leslie]

At some point, at some level, isn't there some primal, ancestral need for a man to want a woman?? Before everyone starts sending hate mail, I just want to admit that I'm in love with a gay man and for all I've tried to forget it, subliminate it, I just cannot. I know that life and feelings and self-perception are fluid, constant. Instead of letting loose and throwing things, I've chosen silence and noncommunication with him and it's killing me. I'm angry!! We have so much history between us and he is my best friend. But I'm angry and feel unvalued in a way that I need from him. Should I tell myself, goodbye?:confused: