I just don't get it

[ZackT]

I can talk a little about the "truly loving someone without sexuality". My best friend, a man named Dustin. He's been my best friend, closer than a brother, for 6 years now. I truly love him, he and I have this understanding on some other level that I've never experienced with anyone else and I wonder if I ever will.

Now, there may be some small chance in the future that me and him could actually end up together, but the likelyhood is pretty dim because of distance, and relationships we're currently in. I think it's about as likely as you and your gay best friend getting together, honestly. It's not impossible, but it's very unlikely.

Now, I can hear him talk about his new girlfriend that he's been in love with ever since he was 12, and although I wish it was me over there instead, I still feel alright because I know he's happy and really, that's how I know I love him so much. He's the one person who I've connected to so thoroughly that the old cliches actually apply. "I just want you to be happy, I don't care as long as you're happy" and so on.

Don't need the sex, don't need physical intimacy. Emotional and mental is all we need. Maybe at some point, you'll be able to move on. I think I started to move on when I started to really grasp that it just wasn't going to happen between us.