My confession

[billyclay]

I want to just get it off me since it has always weighed on me. I think of it every day for the past 10 years. When i was 13, in middle school, i was raped by the Athletics coach(most would think this a fantasy), I still didnt know what i wanted back then, and i know i didnt want to do it. I am gay i know that, i was wondering if anyone thinks this may have been a turning point in my life. I never spoke of it to anyone besides having my schedule changed to get rid of athletics (also might explain my hate for football) but i seen the coach today while i was at walmart, and i just felt hurt all over again. i felt stabbed, i wanted to die right then and there. I just wanted to type or write this someplace to get it out off my chest, i never told anyone until now.