I'm confused need a better understanding

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I was watching a workout Instructional video and I normally don't get hard but ivwatched his muscles closely and I started to get a sensation on my penis and then I started to get hard. Is there a difference between getting aroused through thoughts and watching porn compared to actual sex?

I've noticed that homosexual thoughts and porn turn me on much more than straight porn and thoughts but when it comes to down to actual sex I'm also equally turned on.
Does the fact I get turned on more through gay thoughts indicate I may be gay but just don't want to admit?

The reason this confuses me is because if I am gay it would be weird because I just don't see myself being with another man as far as a romantic relationship goes.. I've always wanted to end up with a women and I've had some amazing sex with women and Ive enjoyed it so much I loved everybit of it and want to find that right girl who loves me for me and won't cheat on me. And on two occasions guys wanted to kiss me and I just did not want to I just wanted it strictly sexual I just wanted to have fun.

Also is it possible that people around me can see that I'm gay and that I may be on the closet? "according to them" I just get paranoid feelings that people and freinds think I am through my body language and voice sometimes even though I've been told I'm not gay acting or looking.


Another thing is I notice when I'm around my freinds I try to keep myself from staring at their crotches and I thought maybe I'm gay because I do this but then when I look at the way I am with everyone else I do the same thing even with my family lke my dad brother and my mom. So I'm not sure what to think of that.

If someone can help me understand these situations in the easiest way possible especially if if its possible im bi or gay or you think it sounds like i might end up gay I would really
appreciate it. Thanks