Should I? Or Should I not? I'm dying here.

[iPromise]

I have a huge problem, my recent relationship that I totally fell flat for, I'd probably give the world up, or my life up for it to go right, was about a year now.

It's been a year since we've actually talked to each other, etc. etc... okay it's a really long story.

I can't stop thinking about him, I'm angry at him, I'm broken because of him, and I really just sometimes wish I never knew him because my life would have been completely different. If I could go back in time, I'd choose not to meet him, but I still LOVE him, I care for him, I still go to bed thinking about him.

Everyday there seems to be something that I do that reminds me of him, I wonder what he must be doing this same time, Or I think about how he's probably working out right now, or he's graduated form college, probably hoping to get into graduate school...

Okay you get the point? I'll give my life up to be with him again if I can.

Thing is, I'm so angry at him, because I felt like he used me, I was just another experiment.

I haven't talked, text, or communicate with him in any way or form for over a year now since our last encounter. We had about a two and a half relationship, that started out as friends only. Later on he wanted and decided to be more, at first he said he was straight, but later into our relationship he love and care for me.

His birthday is next month February, 23rd. I want to send him a birthday card, to sorta spark up the communication back with us.

Please give me the brutal most honest advice on this, I don't care how you want to criticize me for being so stupid wanting to do this, I need some honest advice from you guys.

- Thanks,