Hmm. I think we're getting somewhere!

[Bravo]

I know, I know. I'm not playing games anymore, I got past that after I told him I'm bi two weeks ago. I actually thought our friendship was gone and with that any hopes of ever having a relationship with him. But I asked him what he thought when I told him I thought I was into guys (too scared to say I was sure at the time), and his reply was pretty straightforward: "Not alone".

Now we actually had the chance to talk about this, and it seems we're fine. He says he had his life planned out, that he would get married and have kids, like he was trying to explain why he was scared this was going to happen... But he said he doesn't regret it and that he's glad I was his first because he wanted it to be with someone he liked and could trust if it ever happened. He also said he didn't know for how long he was going to be able to hold it in, and that "his doubt is his life". I'm fine with keeping it secret because I was going to anyway, but I think he needs more time to sort things out.

I also think he is going way too fast for me and that's another thing I'll have to talk to him. I'm not going anywhere past second base until we know exactly what we're doing!