I think my family hates me...

[chibigiraffe]

Congrats. Now. Time to move on and not dwell on your family or church life.

I fear that sometimes you may dwell on others' reactions to you too much. Focus on the what matters.

Your education and being at peace with your own self.

Oh. And getting laid.

yeah, i know that i worry too much about other people's opinions of me. i didn't always use to be this way though. i was very carefree and energetic when i was young, but once i started having feelings for other guys and started getting bullied and stuff, i restrained a lot of myself in order to not get negative attention.

I know that you and your family communicate on different levels, because the same thing happens with me and my family. I tried to talk to them, express my feelings, reason with them... I tried yelling, fighting, silent treatments.. Nothing WORKED!!!! They just cannot understand me hence I know what you're going through... Now, it is up to you whether you wanna try to reach a compromised level in order to communicate with them or just leave and still be in touch with them and try to keep visiting them every once in a while or never look back again... Sometimes, it is the fact that you live with them that causes this... I know with my family, they would give me more attention if I was away which is totally messed up!

Oh and, family doesn't stop at people from the same blood. You can always go fetch your own family from friends and loved ones who love you for you and communicate with you. Listen to you and take care of you like you do with them.

Xoxoxoxo

so right! i've tried communicating everyway i could also. i even tried changing myself in order to fit in with my own family, but i hated how i was. so now i'm trying to find myself again. i am currently going through the whole "silent treatment" thing with my family now in order to find some inner peace... but i don't even think they notice it...