I think my family hates me...

[JohnSomebody]

I'm sorry as well to hear about your troubles with your family ...and I can totally relate because I went through similar situations as yourself with my family when they found out that I was gay as well. As I had mentioned in an earlier post...the older guy that I was with who was very possessive and used to call my mom's house constantly throughout whenever I would visit them....well his behavior made my mom very suspicious as to what was the status of our relationship. I remember the day she questioned me about this and her and I were the only people in the house at that time. When I confessed the truth to her...she had informed me that she would not tell any of my siblings and that she would leave that up to me when I was ready to do so. Unfortunately...she told everyone as soon as I left her house. From the point on...I was not welcomed to family gatherings such as Christmas, Thanksgiving and other holidays. No family member kept any kind of contact with me for years. Initially, this caused me a lot of pain...and honestly..at the beginning..I made many attempts to buy my mom and my family's love because I had a good paying job and money was no problem. Although I was doing this...I was still not welcomed to attend any holiday dinners or other family gatherings. This is when I finally came to the conclusion to stop trying to buy their love and to move on by myself and focus on moving up the corporate ladder and my friends' families had adopted me into their families. Years have gone by and I am a much stronger individual and I handle family situations a lot different than I did during those years. I now live for me and not those who have difficulty accepting my sexuality. One sibling has come around and although I can sense she still have some issues...and yet I do have a relationship with her because I am aware that she is trying and she does want me in her life despite whatever hangups she may still have even though she tells me she doesn't. So...my advice to you is live for you and love for you and not others and keep moving forward for your benefit ....in the end ...you will began to see that you can succeed and progress without them. Stay Blessed...JS