What's on Your Mind

[InbetweenDreams]

Seems I have battled in all three of those. I have managed to get a degree, its nothing special, but I suppose it is one notch above High School. I have gone through all sorts of hobbies, however it seems a lot of the ones I get into are rather expensive. Tried painting, RC Cars, amateur radio, photography (film and digital)...some of them stuck with me while other left me in disgust (RC Cars). Number 3...maybe someday. I always had a hard time making friends in school and thus don't have many these days, people drift away. I'm just not the life of the party, I don't enjoy hanging out with a bunch of people getting drunk and stoned. I enjoy hanging with a couple people at a time.

I had a similar argument about karma. I believe in it, I think if you do good things, good things will come sooner or later. I think we settled that karma really isn't a thing but it is often tied to the choice you do make. If you're a theif, steal stuff, might end up in jail, might end up with a rotten life because no one wants to hire someone with felonies on their background check. While people who give to charity, do nice things, does good work probably will be sucessful in life and is likely to have friends and people to support them when bad things do happen.

But I do ponder about life in general, I think while I may be in a bummed mood, I do still think it is fascinating, but I often dwell on the issues that's eating me at this very moment and not bask in the awe of the universe. Which is one reason I like astronomy...that's another hobby I spent too much money on and never get to do...For me it is fun taking a friend out to look at the stars but no one ever has time, or so they say.