What's on Your Mind

[InbetweenDreams]

Axle, when I was in high school and taking piano lessons, I told my piano teacher that I really did not like a certain piece. It is very short and simple and VERY famous. She said, "Thats OK. You just aren't old enough yet." A few years went by and I found myself in college and listening to an hour-long lecture on the piece which takes about a minute and a half to play. She was right. Nearly sixty years have gone by and I learn something new every time I hear that piece. She was right and then some.

Give it time and try not to overthink. There is great value in that. My buddy T. S. Eliot wrote

"Teach us to care and not to care.
Teach us to sit still."

Which is also good advice.

As for making someone happy, I know it is not what you are really talking about, but I'd be willing to bet that there is more than one guy on this board that you make happy just by being around. Be glad of it.

Well I'm glad I make some people happy. I suppose it is often something that goes unnoticed. I guess perhaps it is the other way around. However I did have to remove the post, I felt it necessary. However, maybe it is mutual happiness. After thinking about and perhaps I still can't quite put my finger on it...but maybe it is something like being happy that I am able to make my partner happy who also makes me happy? Perhaps you might know what I'm getting at better than I do lol

My problem is that I am insecure as hell...at least in the beginning anyway. I do think once a commitment is made of some sort I do start feeling more at ease...not complacent, just not so nervous about whether they like/love me or not. I worry way too much and between the worrying and the jumping to conclusions has got the better of me in the past.