What's on Your Mind

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I have realised tonight that i really am a sad a pathetic and worthless "person" who is better off dead, i hate life and i hate work. Everything as gone wrong and i have had two sexuality based remarks from customers and regardless how little or big of a thing people can say i dont find it appropriate. I have just walked 5 miles home from work in the cold rain due to the mess work became, the fact i am not trained my self and on with a trainee who messed things up too. I am tired of living and i know i have offended many people by just being me and even offended people who tell me to be just me talking out wont work as i get told to shut up and stop talking about my self so i bottle things up then to cope i take strips of heavy painkillers in one go to self harm and poison my self which will slowly kill me. Life is pointless and no one needs me, im tired of being lonely and not meeting people and when i do it all fails like the last time, gay men hate me, so do straight people. What chance do i have in life none. I give up