What's on Your Mind

[Anocxu]

Pretty upset at the moment, i am aware of how much a failure i am, no matter what people say i know i am. I have lost out on so much life, i have tried moving forward and nothing works or nothing comes of it, people flake away, people forget me, no matter if im moody me or happy me i just end up losing. Im sick of the same things being said to me to just go my own way but i am so lonely and my life is getting worse, my only solace is booze and pills, i saw something and heard something on my way home tonight and it really upset me and proved to me and made me more aware of my issues and failings. Just so fed up and im going to snap soon and you know what ill be to blame and ill end up worse off and people will laugh again and not care.

I saw some people fighting outside my shop with their girlfriends too and thought you know what i bet they will all be ok in the morning and when i have been with people the slightest thing i do people leave. I hate life i really do and i do wish i was dead.

I keep asking you to take it easy on yourself..

Booze and pills solve absolutely nothing..
Self medication is really just a cappy way to freeze time.. or keep you mellow and numb to face the same issues later..

Cheer up..
Giant hug.