Seeing my age is scary

[MikeW]

Seeing my age in my profile is scaring the hell out of me. I can remember seeing my age as being 19 like it was yesterday...

Another weird thing about getting older... aside from the subjective experience of time moving faster... is that INSIDE you don't age as quickly as your body does. At least this is the case for me. I *feel* (psychologically, sexually, emotionally, IDK what all) WAY younger than I actually am. Part of this is I've kept myself in good shape. I've always been an 'outsider' and someone who goes a bit against the common grain. So I have a 'youthful' attitude. But it's also true that I just don't feel as old as I am. I look at myself in the mirror and think, "Who the fuck is that?!!"

SO... IDK... I feel at least 20 years younger than I actually am. This can sometimes cause problems, too, because I often relate to younger people as if I'm a peer when THEY don't see me that way at all.

I also hate the "age is just a number" BS. It is WAY more than that.