What's on Your Mind

[InbetweenDreams]

Sometimes people give really bad advice....and no not talking about anyone on here...but it happens. I guess really the only person you can trust is yourself and sometimes that's a bad idea too.

I feel like it would be better if I didn't feel at all, feeling has done nothing but cause grief.

It's my own damn fault. I never do anything right, I could have just been whatever a normal person does...whatever the fuck that is. Just would be easier to just switch it off.

Either someone is angry with me or they think I'm crazy....or both. To my friend who told me "oh there's someone out there for you," ugh give me a break. There are no guarantees in this world except for death and taxes. I kind of wished I hadn't reconnected with that person or listened to her, people don't understand, no matter how much you explain, they're going to either say something good (which is what you want to hear) or they're going to tell you it's bad...that could all be good or bad advice, somewhere in between.

I have had people tell me stop pinning over one person all your life (and that was no one on GS)....and I have had people tell me hang on there, be patient. I wanted to be patient but I was really trying to figure out how. It's not that I don't know better, but you know it's like my brain and heart don't work together and like a kid you do something you shouldn't do anyway...

I guess I'm just as clueless as I was 10 years ago... and looks like I'm going to be sitting here trying to put life's puzzle pieces together for a long time...