What's on Your Mind

[InbetweenDreams]

people kept telling me, "Gods got something good for you" since I was little and the something never came. plus a lot of people that claim to be Christian are fucking awful. Life just sucks, people say bad folks will get what s coming to them but i dont see it happen. just shit I think about when i"m drunk

Well firstly, I think it is perfectly fine to think about these things, drunk or sober. Just be glad you don't blindly accept things. Yes, there are Christians who are awful... I find that people are awful. We often want to see good things happen to people and bad things to happen to bad people. We often hear about bad things happening to good people and not the other way around. Just turn on the news, you'll hear about all the atrocities of the day and basically the world is a giant bag of shit floating in space.

I also think it is easy to take a look at yourself and think, this sucks, my life sucks, nothing is going right, I'm this and I'm that and so on. Hell, I do it all the time. I can literally write several long winded paragraphs about how awful things are in my life and how unhappy I am and how unattractive and mediocre I feel....but, I try to avoid going there. I know now that it is a biased point of view. Yes, there are tough times and sometimes things suck and they can suck for a long time and it works on you. This year, I don't know what it is, but it seems nearly everyone is having a crummy time. So much stuff has gone wrong.

As far as bad people go. I've seen people on the Pagan/Wiccan groups who are seeking help casting spells to get revenge on their friends ex who was a terrible person. Not saying they're bad for wanting bad things to happen to an asshole but I think using your faith in that manner doesn't make you a good person. Frankly, I have a hard time accepting that crystals and gems and whatnot have any special powers, a lot who practice witchcraft do but I don't see it much different than those who pray or do some sort of ritual. The bottom line is do what make sense to you and it never hurts to have someone as a guide or to ask questions. For all we know we all go around once, perhaps our consciousness will go out like a light and that's it, maybe we reincarnate, maybe we go into another dimension, maybe there is a heaven and hell...None of us really know, we don't know that anyone has come back a second time around. So the best advice I have for you, probably advice I should take, is make it count. Doesn't mean you have to do anything in particular, doesn't mean you have to travel or win some sort of award or whatever, just try to focus on the good, savor the good times. We often focus on the bad things that happen to us. Try not to focus on the news and all the bad shit that happens, maybe it is a family member. My aunt lived with us for about a year, she was horrible and a mooch. I'd also say learn to forgive as well, that's something I have a hard time doing.

Finally, I try not to blame the divine for things happening. I think things do happen for reasons it seems there might be some sort of pattern. Like why do certain things happen when they happen, like just when things can't get worse, they do and then on the flip side, crazy things work out for the good--against all odds. I do think there is some weird stuff that happens that seemingly isn't by chance. However, I take the stance that the universe, the divine or whatever you believe isn't running a call center, I don't think praying that I win the lottery that I'm going to win the lottery...

At any rate, hang in there, things will get better...things ebb and flow, sometimes shit sucks or sucks shit and sometimes you catch a break and you never know when things are going to happen or what sequence of events will lead you to something good or something bad. That's all I got to say, kind of a boring night here....