What's on Your Mind

[BlueStar]

@InbetweenDreams My point was only to tell about my dreams to the few people I love, which, unfortunately, I cannot see very often.

As for explaining the last one, among many others I have had over the years, returning to high-school in this dream means I somehow miss having that massive crowd of unknown people around me. Probably because I used to slightly enjoy every new year's beginning before it turned out to be worse than the precedent.

The merge with my elementray school, on the other hand, goes back to the warm part of my childhood I miss today, where we still had only each other to play with as neighborhood kids, instead of keeping our distance like most people are doing these days.

I ended high-school in 2015, the last year being warmer and smoother than all the others, maybe because people wanted to enjoy my presence before I take a one-way flight to Europe.

So yeah, I understand quite well why the hell my emotions are so twisted. I have been living in pain everyday for a long time because I miss having those few moments of intense affection I had just a few days prior to my flight. I still have no idea how to turn that kind of negative into positive, since I can't seem to be able to get any closer to my loved ones, but that's another story.

You are right, easier said than done. The morning I wake up from bad dreams, I can be dark-mooded and aggressive for several days, although I definitely need someone to talk to at the very same time.